all's good

ok... everytin's cleared nw i tink... ^_^ called jas n tok tins out... dun rilly fil like goin in2 details, but basically, tink we both got 1 another... yeah~~~ ^_^

so much makin n changin n makin n changin n makin n changin of plans 2dae... wahahha... seriously... spent 4m e time i woke up at 4 or 5 till abt 8 jus doin all tt... n in e end, we settled w/ another mj nite... -_-" so 3 mj nites in a row!! crazy man... tink i'm goin blind cos i'm seein 2 much of cam's glittery green tiles we bought 4 her bday!! XD heh... so tink we all nid a break 4m mj 4 awhl... ~_~

anyway, shou catch sum slp, bn slpin less dan 5 hrs each day 4 e past few days actually... T_T sad sad... had 2 much 2 tink n couldnt slp all... but guess nw i shou b able 2 dream away w/ no worries... ^_^

dis entry's rilly borin... -_- bye... XP

cute quote

saw dis on angele's blog:

"Everybody wants to go to heaven, but no one wants to die."

i disagree!!! i dun care abt heaven, n i do wanna die!! >_<*

so its nt everybody k... wahaha... XP

mahjong bitch

mj conflict... god... conflicts will never end... n if dis carries on, i'm gonna lose 1 of e few tins i live 4... n tt is 4 u guys... i noe i was a complete bitch jus nw... i feel like i cannot explain in real life anymore... bloggin is like e only way i can phrase wat i wanted 2 say...

anyway, i jus wanted ur sympathy, tt i lost $38 ytd... i played all e way till "bei feng" den i finally won my 1st 20 cents... i'm nt kiddin... i tink i emptied out my drawer at "nan feng" n had 2 borrow $20 4m cam so tt i cou cont payin em $$... -_- we started w/ a $20 bal, i lost $20, borrowed another $20 n i ended up w/ only $2 left... tt was simply demoralisin k... i mean u shou noe hw tt feels also whn u play w/ aaron n his frens rite??

n 2dae i was also stil losin at 1st rite?? but at least at "nan feng" i managed 2 win a lil back... i agree it was v stupid of me 2 throw my tantrum like tt 4 throwin tt stupid wrong tile... n bein e way i was e rest of e time... tt i def went over brd... but aft tt it was jus hard 2 b back 2 e way i was cos e fit i threw was ridiculously outrageous... n at tt pt of time, i rmbd wat i blogged abt... abt nt bitchin... n realised i was bitchin 2 u abt ytd's losses n tryin 2 get sumtin out of u... i was doin wat i wasnt supposed 2 do!! so i guess, since tins were already tt way, i mite s well jus carry on keepin quiet n stop bein such a clown 2... tt only made me look like i was angry doh... wch i was la, but at myself... doh i did realised tt i started winnin more whn i jus shut up... maybe i've bn wastin 2 much energy bein a clown sumtimes...

anyway, i shou rilly stop bein so worked up whn losin $$ at mj... so e only solution i tot of was dis... i record every profit n loss 4m nw onwrds... its 2 bad i din do dis 4m e start... den at least i wouldnt b so temperamental nw whn i lose cos i guess whn i tink back, i shou haf stil won more den i lost... so wateva it is, i'll jus start on a clean slate... dis may b ril calculative of me... but wateva... i only seem 2 rmb losses more dan winnins, so dis is e only way 2 stop my seriously stupid acts at mj...

but i'm still fed up... i noe its stupid... 2 wanna die over small tins... i fil so irritated tt livin means havin 2 face tins like dese... god... is dis also considered bitchin?? i shou jus shut up rite?? nitezzzZZzzz... -_-

bitchin bitch

i haf a serious major prob, i bitch 2 fuckin much!! n rite nw, i'm stil bitchin!! n its most prob gonna make tins worse or u mite even hate me more instd... but dis is e only way i wanna explain... thru bitch bloggin... cos i'm a fuckin bitchin bitch!!

2dae we were supposed 2 go swimmin, but i woke up 2 mich's sms tt said she wanted 2 play mj 2nite instd cos she cant make it tml, fri... sat she workin, wun b able 2 play mj w/ us 2... so i called cam up 2 c if she can play mj 2dae, wch she said shou b can, but she n kj din wanna play separately, so i had 2 ask u, if u wanna play mj 2nite instd n swim tml... but u said no... u said aaron comin 2 play mj tml so u rather swim 2dae n play mj tml... so i told mich, sorry cannot cos u wanna swim, n tt also means i haf 2 go swimmin 2 n ere'll only b mich, cam n kj left 2 play mj... so cannot la... but i felt quite bad cos mich was quite sad all, in fact all 3 of us r in pretty bad shape... mich broke up w/ ed, i broke up w/ phil n u got ur work stress... mich rilly wanted 2 play 2nite cos she din haf any other plans n she'd end up tinkin of stuff she doesnt wan 2 at hme... tts y she called u 2 ask if cam n kj confirm can play 2nite, will u mind if we played mj instd of swimmin... n u said u wun mind... so whn cam said tt she n kj confirm can play n can also play separately 2 since u din wanna play mj, so i decided 2 go play mj w/ em, since u already said tt it was fine w/ u tt we played mj 2... so whn i told u abt it, u got unhappy... but do u even noe y i felt tt we shou play mj instd??

2dae was e only day mich cou play mj w/ us...

u cou play mj w/ us 2dae, fri n sat...

whn mich broke up w/ ed on tue, i refused 2 go dwn town 2 meet her n rather u guys come dwn pw 2 hang... u scolded me 4 bein calculative n a bad fren... i realised i was wrong n so 2dae, i tot e rite tin 2 do was 2 play mj w/ mich instd...

we can alwiz go swimmin another day, we did cancel our swimmin on tue jus 2 b w/ mich rite??

so whn i told u tt we playin mj 2nite instd u got all unhappy... n i din noe hw 2 make u c all tt, cos maybe me sayin it doesnt mean anytin 2 u... so i called mich 2 complain tt u're unhappy abt it, tt u dun c y we're playin mj instd of swimmin... n so i tot it wou b beta if mich called u 2 tell u e above so tt tins wou b beta... call me selfish, but i dun wanna b blamed 4 sumtin dis way!! i refuse 2 b accused of bein at fault 4 cancellin our swimmin plans!! e only tin i fuckin hate abt myself is 4 bitchin!! 4 alwiz alwiz bitchin!! cos whn she called u, she told u tt i said u were unhappy!! of cos u'd noe tt i called her 2 call u!! me n my bloody bitchin mouth shou jus go 2 hell!! tins got worse n u were jus angry at me n i rilly din noe hw 2 explain 2 u anymore cos u were in a v foul mood already n tellin u anytin more wouldnt make u any happier... so i jus finally shut up... but again... i had 2 go on fumin, n bitchin abt e whole situation... n bein sooooo angry n shit...

n 2dae rilly isnt a gd day at all... w/ all e built up anger 4 everytin, i had 2 come hme 2 my hse dr w/ e key still hangin at e key hole... my sis 4got 2 pull out e dr key aft she got hme jus nw... n since i was scolded by my parents b4 tt 4 4gettin 2 close e gate aft sendin mich off 2 e bus stop ytd, dis is e 2nd time dey caught me, i immediately complained 2 my dad tt my sis 4got 2 pull out e key again 2dae, dis is her i dunno hw many times 2!! n she came out 2 of cos defend herself n said tt she was tired 4m work all tts y, n den she went on by sayin tt leavin e gate opn was more dangerous!! wch i rilly dun tink so... i mean even if ppl can pass thru e gate, ere's no way ey can get in2 e hse cos every window n dr ard e hse wou b locked... but if u left e key at e dr, anybody can jus climb over e stupid gates n opn e dr w/ e key hangin on it n come rite in2 e hse rite?!?! but wateva!! i'm jus so mad!! so mad tt ere's so much bloody conflicts n shit!! dis is deja vu actually... i rmb i felt s mad s dis b4 bcos of all ese shitty conflicts goin on!! n its jus so frustratin!! i hate ese kinds of stupid conflicts!! even if it's solved, it'll jus keep comin back in e future 2!! i feel so irritated by tt tot, tt i rilly tink i shou jus kill myself so tt i dun haf 2 face it anymore!!!!

but tts nt gonna hap is it... its against my fuckin stupid principals!! fuck!!! so it stil boils dwn 2 me n my bitchin ass mouth!! i shou jus shut e fuck up rite!??! i shou never tok abt anytin i'm unhappy abt anymore rite?? i may haf nutin 2 ever say again cos all i've bn doin all my life is bitch tokin...

i shou rilly blif in tt karma tin, cos it rilly is true isnt it?? i bitch n bitch n it comes back 2 me in e forms of conflicts n shit... nw i noe y... its all my bloody fault tt phil wou leave me n cheat on me n all... cos tts karma... i bitch abt him neglectin me all e time even b4 we 1st broke up... tts y he broke up w/ me!!! den even whn we got back, i jus cont 2 bitch abt hw cold he was 2 me, tts y he cheated on me!! its all dis fuckin tin called karma!! each time i bitch, i'm ret w/ a bad consequence!!

so dis is it, i haf 2 stop bitchin... i tink i shou nt opn my mouth 4 a start...

my work

ha... so i lied in my comment... who cares... haha... anyway, i jus feel like i haf 2 blog abt everytin tt haps... heh... its like hwk 2 me already or sumtin...

so ytd was day 2 of workin 4 my dad... n guess wat?? i woke up 2 n empty hse... -_-" my 1st job of tt day was, steamin sum siew mai... haha... i'd never bother doin so much jus 2 eat actually, but since everytin was pretty much prep out 4 me, like e pots n stuff... n e only tin i had 2 do was boil water n throw e siew mai in 4 steamin...

job 2, nutin else was given aft tt actually... wahahah... so i jus did my own stuff again... translated my blog's song actually... den rite b4 i was goin out 2 meet mich 4 gym, my dad comes hme... -_-" abit e late rite... so anyway, day 2 of my work ended, n outin w/ mich started... doh we din do much la... i'm tired 4m havin 2 wake up early in e mornin everyday, n she had work at 6am e nxt day... so we jus did gym, ate n shopped a lil... both had no $$ anyway... haha... T_T

day 3, i finally woke up 2 c my dad ard, runnin his lil errands n shoutin over e phone at e bankers whom made a mistake or sumtin... n i tink i finally did sum ril work... handlin e visa my dad needed 2 apply 2 go japan cos he's indonesian... hmmm.. ok... tt wasnt ril work aftall... cos ey're jus goin ere on hols... wahahah... n all i did was make a call 2 find out hw much's e visa fee n wat docs r req n also e-mailed my cousin whom ey're plannin 2 stay w/ ere... nw's quite a gd time 2 go japan actually... w/ e currency rate nw, u can get 100 yen at only S$1.39... unlike last time whr its 100 yen 4 S$1.51... ^_^ but like tt matters 2 u anyway... -_- haha...but nw's a gd time 2 go anywhr la cos our currency so strong n, everytin everywhr else will look cheap!! wahaha... XD

so ya... tts abt e updates so far... feel updated enuff justine?? haha... XD

maroon 5

songs abt jane

1. Harder to Breathe
2. This Love
3. Shiver
4. She Will Be Loved
5. Tangled
6. The Sun
7. Must Get Out
8. Sunday Morning
9. Secret
10. Through With You
11. Not Coming Home
12. Sweetest Goodbye

uploaded ese songs on my multiply.com... its such a coincidence... but... WATEVA... i hate 2 hear e word "wateva" e most 4m ppl cos i felt it rilly hurt like fuck each time tt word was pasted on my forehead... it became till a pt whr i never used tt word on another bein at all... but instd only on tins or situations... so... WATEVA........

2 tired

2 tired 2 blog.. eyes hurt 2 much......

1st photo

was lkin thru my old hp photos... n i saw it... e 1st photo we took 2gether at sentosa usin my hp... i miss u... i miss u so much... i hate u... y dun u love me.......

katong girl

i was given e nick katong girl bhind my back!! n i only found out abt it 2dae, by nt 1, but 2 diffe ppl!! T_T

i'm goin 2 cry 2 slp nw... haha... nitezzzZZZzzz~~~

nancy lam

if u r eva awake at 11.30am on a tue, u'd catch dis disgustin cookin woman on channel 5... my god... dis fat lady who speaks like martin yan w/ a british slang bloody irritates me 2 hell man... w/ her ugly thick black rimmed glasses n tryin 2 act yg w/ her spiked up red hair top... n e tin tt disturbs me most, is tt she claims tt e black who assist her in her cookin show is her husband... i mean e way dey act ard each other def do nt look like dey're married lor... it looks more like he was forced 2 marry dis pig... -_- n e way she treats him is like he's her 5 yr old son or sumtin... like wtf... he's a bloody grown man... doh e way he acts is a lil like dose humble nigger slaves found in america in i dunno wat yr tt is... haha... its like e parts whr she calls him a "gd boy" makes all my hairs std man... n callin him 2 "faster, faster" like he's sum slave jus irritates me la... o, n ere's 1 part whr she went, "most ppl cut deir cucumbers str, but try 2 cut em slanted, i noe ppl haf deir own techniques, but try 2 use mine" -_-" my god... is she 4 real??? anyway, dis whole cookin show is based in uk or sumtin, tt explains all e guest bein british n her v try hard british accent along w/ his 2... i tink, i tink i'm jus plain irritated in e mornin la... wahahaha... XD

yea... 2dae is supposedly my 1st day of work... but e boss is out... out whr?? playin mj... -_-" no fair man... n i'm stuck hme, awake so freakin early in e mornin!! facin mountains n mountains of pp mess infront of me... so wat cou i do?? eat snake lor... since e boss nt here also... wahahha... its actually a pretty gd 1st day la... heh... ~_~ o yea, u din noe abt me workin 4 my dad again did u... my god, i update so much n ere's stil so much left out... wahhaha... XD anyway, ya, we had another long tok again ytd... my mom din rilly make it clear if she gave me e green lite 2 skip my exam, but in e mean time, jus try 2 learn wateva i can 4m my dad, n if tt pearly woman calls me, i'll jus try out e job 4 abit also lor...

n i bet u'll luff aft hearin dis, i may be able 2 delay e america tin 4 a long whl more, y?? cos my dad prays 2 his gods n dey gave him dis "sign" tt says he cant sell away dis big hse, tt he shou stay in dis hse actually, so if he wanted 2 buy a hse in america, he has 2 sell his other hses instd 2 do so... den i rmb n went cuttin in tt maybe we rilly shouldn't go anytime soon yet or so cos e fortune teller my mom made me go 2 b4 told me tt i'm no gd overseas, tt i shou stick close 2 hme, whr i was born... wahahah... so dese ridiculous stuff can save my ass, so b it!! XP i'm nt goin anywhr, i'll bloody learn everytin 4m my dad n stay put here!! ^_^

freaky quicky

my god... tt woman rilly called me n gave me a job at sum jap insurance company wch i had 2 start work tml!! O_O but in e end i had 2 turn her dwn bcos it clashed w/ my stupid exams... -_-" damn it!! i cant std hw i'm alwiz in dese kinda situations whr i like so on all at 1st, but later whn rilly confirmed given e chance, den i got so many draw backs n shit tt makes me unable 2 perform n all... wtf.... anyway, i was a pig la jus nw... i rilly felt v tired all, even pulled my blanket up n snuggled in2 my pillow n went 2 slp... wahahha... but in less dan n hr's time, pearlyn called 2 inform me abt e job opnin... -_- i was pretty slow n stuff la whn answerin her... she asked me y i din put wat i was doin nw, wch is actually gonna fail my dip, but i din tell her tt la... -_-" so i was like jus quite reluctant all, ask her if can jus leave it s 'o' lvl grad nt... but she said nt v gd 2 do tt... said,"even if u were 2 fail ur exams, touch wood, jus put it in so tt it doesnt look like u din do anytin 4 e past 1 yr..." ok... jus 4 ur info, i din tell her i mite fail my exam at all... i jus acted reluctant... so ya... she rilly understds my situation sia... amazin... i tink i like her... wahahhaha... XD

anyway, aft endin e call, i immediately went 2 find my bloody exam timetable, cos i'm actually nt v sure whn it rilly is all... n in case e nxt job she finds me, i'll b able 2 ans more confidently if it clashes w/ my exams or nt... but seriously, i'm nt rilly a person 2 lose tins, but dis time, i tink i rilly dun give a shit abt sch or sumtin, cos i cant find e pp or wateva it is i wrote e exam timetable on... man... i rmb my mom also copied it dwn on her organiser, but she din ans my call... i called e sch, n e woman can tell me she nt sure, tt e person in charge is on leave blah blah... tink she jus a super newbie la... or jus 2 lazy 2 chk... -_-" so last resort, valerie!! feel so bad man... alwiz call her regardin sch related stuff only... ~_~" well, got my timetable at last, but stil got 1 prob, can i nt go 4 my exam?? haha... called my sis, told her everytin, actually at tt time my mind was stil a mess... i din noe wat i needed 2 do or ask or noe... so she basically cleared it up 4 me by tellin me, since i told her i'll fail no matter wat, tts y goin 4 e exam is pretty much a waste of time, i haf 2 get permission 4m my mom 1st 2 skip e exam... so tt cleared it... nw i jus haf 2 wait 4 my mom 2 get hme n tok 2 her abt it... ^_^

n i rilly pray tt e nxt job pearlyn finds me is gd or beta dan dis jap insurance 1... wch btw, dis 1 is jus dose kinda admin job, wch i 1 btw... its at raffles city, 8.30am - 5.30pm, $6.50/h... it sounds pretty nice all lor... only tin is, 8.30am?? >_<* abit e early lor... so maybe its gd tt i let dis 1 slip huh... heh... XD

mornin blast

so scary... i tink my sis jus e-mailed my resume 2 e job agency person called pearlyn, n i jus rec a call 4m her!! O_O luckily i wasnt slpin or god i dunno hw shitty i'd haf sounded... lucky i planned 2 stay up all e way til 2nite 2 get back e norm nite slpin time... feel v gorgy all nw actually... but jus keepin my eyes fixated on my animes e whole mornin... hopefully can last til nite time man...

seems i drifted 4m e main pt... haha... anyway, tt pearlyn woman called n immediately went sumtin like "hw do u pronounce ur name", n i was jus blurred out 4 a min... cos she din even intro herself in e 1st plc n askin sumtin like tt, whn i'm in such a gorgy state 2... so i kinda asked abit rudely, who it was... ~_~" oops... o well... she seemed like quite a nice lady la in e end... we tok abit abt whn i can start work (anytime), hw long i can work 4 (got stuck here, but basically we both agreed on indefinitely), n if i'm lookin 4 a perm job or wat (wch i was pretty honest n said tt i was lookin more in2 temp jobs 1st den consider if i wanna make it a perm job, wch she sounded pretty understdin abt it).... heh... ^_^ so she'll keep me informed la... w/ e rate she's goin, i wonder if i'll b employed by tml sia... wahahha... XD

shitty apr

dis has got 2 b e worst apr in history or sumtin... at least 4 me... its nt all tt depressin or shit... jus rilly unpleasant... n y?? dis is y:

1. my parents bein rilly crossed w/ me

2. losin faith in my online $$ makin tin cos 1 aft another jus keep goin dwn rite b4 me, can u imagine all tt work i put in n i end up losin my $$ or only earnin a few cents

3. my future looks so god damn bleak, doh dis i def haf only myself 2 blame, in fact most of e shit on dis list only has myself 2 blame

4. findin out tt i'm bein cheated on n lied 2

5. 200 over unwatched animes on both comps wch i haf 2 clear so tt i can d/l e new rel tt comes out everyday n already pilin up like mad 4 awhl nw

6. havin my bloody period

7. lkin damn fat n bloated rite nw, doh its actually 1 of my least worries surprisinly

8. my savins r seriously depletin like crazy w/ e on-goin luxurious lifestyle i've bn leadin

9. e dream of workin s my sis' admin is dashed cos of her stupid company nt allowin siblins 2 work in e same proj

10. thus, havin no gd news 2 tell my parents so tt ey can get off my back 4 awhl, wch also results in em naggin at me 2 do sumtin abt my o so pathetic life

11. bein told by my parents tt i haf 2 leave sg 2 go 2 america w/ em 2 stay in e near future

12. tt wou mean leavin every1 i love here

13. n tt also means i wun b able 2 go nite cyclin w/ mich or catch midnite movies w/ her

14. or also goin shoppin w/ jas or basically bein her tag along

15. or also playin mj w/ u guys at cam's grandma's hse or at my hse whn my parents r overseas

16. or also goin swimmin w/ u guys at sw's hse

17. or simply jus hangin out w/ u guys at pw 2 play bridge

so w/ 17 tins weighin me dwn like tt, wouldnt u agree w/ me tt dis apr sux ass.... >_<

e wild

watched e wild jus nw!! ^_^ i tot it was rilly funny!! at 1st, i was still tinkin it mite jus b a copycat of madagascar n nt tt gd all... but whn i was watchin it, it rilly made me luff more man!! i tink it did copy alot of cartoons out ere, but it was n improved version of em!! esp loved e sarcastic, witty jokes ey make all!! ^_^ n e fact tt ey had more accents dan madagascar... i mean i noe indian accent is funny la, but ere's more wat, like britsh, italian n all... n ere were'nt jus clueless zoo animals, ere was e st smart squirrel, soprano's kind of aligators, great dancin wilderness beast whom shou b blacks i tink... n e british koala is pretty funny la, w/ e polished, high class giraffe, plus e snake w/ a major screw loose in his head, n e lion's nt jus a caged up sua ku la, he had a pretty sad past 2 n all... e cub is jus a stupid troublemaker 2 me la... but w/out him, ere were'nt b any story 2 la... haha... but ere's dis rilly funny part w/ dis small animal, but i 4got wat rat kind he is or wat la, he was shittin all whn dey accidentally budged in on him... den he so sarcastic all... damn funny la!! heh... ^_^" anyway, e last part btwn e lion n e cub v swt la... n e endin part w/ all of em dancin on brd is rilly funny 2!! basically, i loved e show la... its 1 of e best cartoons i've seen so far... i STRONGLY reccommend it!! ^_^

anyway, i tink i'm grded... hmmm... i'm nt sure... but my dad said sumtin like i can never go out at nite 2 play mj again... funny whn i never once mentioned 2 em tt i went out 4 mj at any pt of time... o well, i was plannin 2 cut back on e overnite outins nxt wk anyway... man... i new dis was comin, but stil went ahead n pushed it anyway... ~_~" haizzz... sumtimes i rilly wished i cou b disowned... dan cosin ppl so much trouble... i dunno y... but maybe i'm jus at a low pt in my life nw, n dyin jus lk so invitin... but well, u noe me, i'm never gonna kill myself, cant actually... a stupid principal i'm stuck on, or maybe i'm jus 2 chkn la... wahaha... XP

anyway, tried dis test 4m angele's blog...

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		7
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		5
Receiving Gifts:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

jus curious 2 c wat i rilly wanted actually... heh... ~_~ cant belif i scored a 10 on physical touch... m i tt scary tt i nid 2 noe e 1 i love is ere rite bside me n tangible at all times?? wahaha... i guess w/ e 1st 2 1 mth long relationships, nutin feels like its gonna b ere 2 last... n even if it did go pass e 1 mth expiry date, it may nt b ere n tangible 4 u 2 touch 2... cos it doesnt love u at all...

way busted

crap... i'm fuckin bustin my ass off... e whole of dis wk has def unplsed my parents til no end... stayin out pract every nite... comin hme only in e mornin or nt even comin hme til e nxt nite... haizzz... rilly fucked la... even 2nite, i felt tt i rilly cant anger em anymore, summo w/ all e stayin out/sch tins goin on, i tot i shou rilly stay hme... tts wat i tot up til e time i woke up 2dae... wch btw, i managed 2 fulfill my dream of slpin 12 hrs 2dae... wahah... anyway, jas called me at 8pm n woke me up, sayin tt she wanted me go town meet her all... den it ended up a mich, jas n i go watch midnite movie n hang til 6am tin... but, jas had 2 end up sayin she 2 tired n all... wch left me n mich... n finally, aft much much much smses back n forth, we're goin 2 watch e wild at 3.40am later... wahhaha... XD

so ya... i'm literally fucked... but wateva, i'll bust my ass 4 e last time or so, n e whole of nxt wk, i'll jus stay hme n watch animes... no nite outin n shit... jus me hme w/ my comp n animes... heh... gotta clear em up la.. pile til more dan 200 epis again... T_T n i even haf a whole list of rel i haven d/l cos both comps got no space 2 d/l new ones liao... ~_~"

mahjong princess

jus got back nt long 4m our v long mj nite... ^_^" it was seriously a v long 1 man.. it took us 5 hrs 2 complete 1 round!! everybody diao zhen at least once lor... it wasnt jus cam, e 1 tai diao zhen queen... haha... n i almost snatched her infamous title 4m her, but ey called me diao zhen princess instead... wahahha...it was pretty scary la, every1 play like damn big 1 lor.. all 5 tai man or close 2 tt 1 lor... heh... den e chips circulate ard alot... but in e end, our winnins were v minimal... i only won $5 dis time... haha... ~_~"

anyway, earlier b4 e mj session, i was stuck at hme waitin 4 em 2 go dwn cam's grandma's hse, my parents n i also had a v long tok... i finally told em tt i dun wanna study anymore... n tt i wou find a job 2 pay em back e 11k i owe em 4 e wasted sch fees n studiotraffic... but ey told me nt 2 bother abt such small tins... n my dad basically insisted tt i go w/ em 2 america... sell e hse here, buy a hse ere, rent it out 2 a few tenants n collect rental s income... i rilly dun wanna leave sg... so i started 2 whine all, den ey ask me wat i wanted 2 do den... n i sorta told em tt i rather stay here n do e forex tin... aldoh i dun seem 2 do anytin whn i did tt e last time... tts y i went 2 study 2 escape 4m it... but nw i rilly cant study, or so i tink... my mom rarely gets mad, but dis time she actually shouted at me... sayin tt i'm jus nt puttin my heart in2 studyin tts y... wch is true... n she also said tt i cant alwiz b so lazy n nt work hard 4 anytin...

i'm 1 of e worst kind of person i tink... whn ppl tell me tt sumtin is hard, i wun try 2 attempt it... whn ppl says its easy, i'll nt put in enuff effort on it, wch makes me end up failin it... doh i dun let tt hap... cos whn i noe i'm unable 2 do sumtin, i gif up b4 i complete it... thus, ppl alwiz tink i cou haf done it jus tt i din try... but sumtimes i rilly feel like tts nt true... n dis terrifies e hell out of me... i rmb ere was 1 time whn i was in sec sch, n i had a maths test e nxt day, i actually studied 4 it, but i stil failed it... but luckily i was also sick tt day, so i cou use tt s n excuse 4 y i din do well... i hate dis part of myself, but i cant overcome it either... so i jus cont 2 live in its shadow...

anyway, in e meantime, my sis is givin my resume 2 e job agency tt her company contracts... so i'll jus haf 2 wait til ey call me up 2 fill in some temp job sumwhr... n c if i can find out wat i mite wanna do whl job hoppin ard...

i dunno... its like ere's so many tins 2 tink abt n all... n sumtimes i feel so tired... so tired of dis tin called life.......

32 hrs

i sorta left my comp alone 4 e past 32 hrs... feels so weird n bad 4 neglectin it... wahahah... let's c, 32 hrs ago, i went swimmin w/ jas n sw... den we played dai dee in e suana, n den we played more at sw's hse... heh... n its bcos lazy mich 2 lazy 2 join us 4 swimmin tts y we short 1 person 2 play bridge lor... >_<

den anyway, agreed 2 go clubbin w/ mich at phuture... mich took more den 2 hrs 2 find bloody clubbin clothes 2 wear!! >_<* my god... so we had 2 take a cab dwn by den cos she missed e last bus liao lor... n seriously, its bn a rilly long time since i went phuture on a wed, i swear, wed aint a fun nite ere... unless u enjoy bein squashed, stepped on, knocked in2, n e worst tin, rubbin against a v sweaty sticky person!! >_< so jas, i tink i'll jus wait 4 ur free invites 4 fris la... haha...

den it was off 2 lido's 24hr mac in a cab again... -_- i tink i've spent more on cab den a mth's worth of bus transportation... so at mac wat else cou we do?? eat........ -_- haha... n played 5,6,7,8 dai dee til 6am b4 headin 2 her hse in a cab again....... -_- doh dis time she paid 4 it la... but i dunno la, jus got sumtin against cabs... haha...

slpt n all at her hse til 6pm den my mom finally called me 2 chk whr i was n if i was comin hme 4 dinner... so, i lied tt i stayed at mich's hse n went 2 sch str 4m ere n nw back at mich's hse again... well, of cos she jus accepted it n jus asked me nt 2 come hme 2 late... n i was stil tinkin of goin nite cyclin w/ mich at nite... but, guess i beta nt push my parents' tolerance lvl 2 much... so we jus ended up goin 2 e new cathay near ps n watched e art of seduction, a korean movie... wch i tot was rilly funny!! ^_^ but mich said it was ok only la... but i tink it was pretty gd lor... tink i haf more luck watchin korean movies w/ mich den any1 else... cos i watched my sassy girl, guns n talks, a season 4 love n e art of seduction w/ her... n all nice ones!! ^_^ den again only 4 movies, maybe tts y... haha... XD

so anyway, managed 2 catch e last bus hme i tink, n so here i m... finally hme swt hme... hw i missed u my darlin comp.... wahahah... XD

aft tinkin

ere's never gonna b another chance 4 us again... nt nw, nt ever... i hope u'll take dis opportunity 2 change... u're a v smart person, u urself noe it 2... pls use ur intelligence 2 gd use... dun use it dis way... dun go hurtin every1... turnin e whole class against a girl is rilly a v cruel tin 2 do... pls find it in ur heart 2 stop torturin her... i'm beggin u 4 dis 1 last tin... pls......

u stil haf a long rd ahead of u... u'll meet many more ppl... n 1 day, u'll meet tt 1 person meant 4 u, n u 4 her... i rilly hope u wun lose her den... so pls dun carry on w/ ur ways... i rilly wish 4 u 2 feel e happiness of bein w/ e 1 u truly love n who truly loves u 2.... bcos tts a feelin far more happier/valuable dan any wch u get 4m e cheap thrills u enjoy doin... so pls tink abt it n change b4 its 2 late...

n 2 my frens, i'm rilly sorry 4 makin u guys worry so much... n i'm v thankful u guys were ere 4 me... i'm rilly sorry... n rilly thankful.... i rilly m... nutin can express hw i feel rite nw... only e tears tts rollin dwn my cheeks nw maybe... even doh i'm nt a v gd person n all, i rilly dunno y i'm blessed w/ havin u guys... wat did i do 2 deserve u guys?? rilly?? i rilly dunno hw 2 say it, dis feelin i haf, of noein tt i haf u guys s my frens... nutin tt i say seems to be enuff at all...

i noe tt i'm a walkin senseless person... n u guys haf rilly bn helpin protect me n all... if nt i rilly dunno wat wou haf hap 2 me... nt havin any basic skills of hw 2 handle any real life issues... but i guess i haf 2 slowly learn 4m nw onwrds n nt alwiz rely on u guys... take a walk outside my garden... i will try my best... :)

monotonous blog

17 apr, mornin

hung up e 3 way conference call

mich left 4 hme

bathed

slpt

woke up at 4pm

gave mich a wake up call

did sum surfin work

called mich again n found out she went back 2 slp jus nw >_<

started readin abit of e chat log

cam called n we toked

mich finally came dwn in a cab 2 pick me up (fuckin paid $11.82 4 it!! >_<)

went 2 meet sum ppl

read e sms n a few others 2

toked n all

jas came

toked summo

mich, jas n i left 2 go eat at spageddies (got 1 for 1 main course or pasta or pizza!! ^_^)

ate til v full n toked til v full also

went hme

on e tv

kong 2 slp in mins

cam called half hr later

we toked summo til almost 2am

on my comp

did more surfin work

visited sum blogs

received sum smses

cont readin e chat log

postin dis monotonous entry

celebrity dogs

jus watched vh1 celebrity pets on mtv jus nw... n i haf 2 say... its totally insane!! ese dogs get 2 live a life way above ours man!! ey slp on thousand dollar beds, walk ard w/ a dunno hw many carat diamond bracelet ard deir necks, rec exquisite pawicures, wear hundred dollar sweaters n spray a $3000 perfume called vip... -_-" walao... so crazy man...

e cost of 1 smll piece of deir clothin can buy me a wardrobe of clothes lor... aldoh i do admit i stinge alot whn it comes 2 clothes tts y... heh... n e bags ey're carried in, yes, dey dun actually walk ard or dey'll spoil deir expensive pawicures -_-", dey dun jus come in real leather, dey even come in python skins!! madness!!

o!! n e most envious part, ey go 2 dog spas... whr dey're totally treated like royalties... gettin deir massages n all... n also goin 2 country clubs jus 4 dogs!!! whr ere's pools w/ waterfalls, each rm w/ a diffe theme, n best stil, a slpin buddy... u noe wat a slpin buddy is?? its actually a person hired by e club 2 slp w/ e dog, 2 warm e dog up all, n give dem tender lovin care so tt ey slp beta n enjoy deir stay ere.... *major rollin of eyes till ey get stuck at e back of my head*

den e last part was showin e top 5 celeb pets in america, i tot it wou b paris hilton's tinkerbell, but i was wrong... hers was no. 2 i tink... at no. 1 is......................... george bush's dog... wahahahahhahaha... XD rec 24/7 top grade security, lives in e white hse, entitled 2 join in e top secret discussions ere, n of cos flyin on e cool air force one plane!! XD wahahah...

yakitate japan

jus watched yakitate japan!! ^_^ its n anime abt makin bread... heh... ~_~ anyway, rilly feel like eatin aft watchin dis epi lor... wahaha... XD

dis epi is abt him makin dis magnificent bread(den again, wch epi doesnt show him makin a magnificent bread?? haha...)... so anyway, dis time, he made a chawanmushi bread!! if u din noe, i LOVE eggs!! esp chawanmushi!! ^_^ heh... anyway, e way he made it was rilly special lor... 1stly he took a big french loaf bread, cut it in2 1/2 n scooped out e insides of it... leavin only e crust wch pretty wch looks like a cup nw... den e insides' wch were scooped out, were chopped up in2 tiny pieces, like croutons... n den stired fry 2gether w/ sea urchin(i noe sea urchin sounds funny, but its e ingredient 2 b used in dis epi... so its supposedly nice 2 eat... or jus imagine its other meat ingredient u like la... haha... XD) den e bread crust cup was filled up w/ egg mixture n e crouton bits n thrown in2 e oven 4 its finishin bake... den voila!! u got urself a chawanmushi bread!! yum yum~~ ^_^

nw i rilly wanna go eat sumtin nice n hot 2 man... since i only had chocs n swts n watermelon 2dae... wahahha... but i also feel 2 lay~~zee~~ 2 cook... haha...

so ya... another food related entry added 2 e list... -_-"

hair talk

my dad came in2 my sis rm, told me tt mom said i cou cut hair... like err, fringe cuttin is all i can do... but hair?? tts jas' dept... haha... so anyway, he went on abt nt wantin 2 pay 10 bucks 4 sum trimmin ard e ears ere... so i was like fine... i'll do it... -_-" i still haven slpt yet jus 4 ur info... haha...

so i went 2 get my barber scissors n layerin scissors, n i started 2 work on my dad's hair... but he kept complainin tt i wasnt cuttin enuff... -_-" had 2 cut it a second time 2 make him happy... i mean normally ppl complain abt deir hair bein cut 2 short lor... haha... but guess i'm jus a timid cutter la... heh...

so anyway, tts nt e pt... e pt is, whn i was cuttin his hair, ere he was tellin me tt aft my sis gets married off, 3 of us, my dad, mom n i shou sell or rent dis plc out, n go live in america or sumtin... of cos i went like,"huh... dun wan la..." whl stil tryin my best 2 concentrate on nt ruinin wateva hair he had left on his head... -_- den s usual he'll go in2 his "eh!! u cannot tink like dis..." kinda speeches all... tellin me tt i cant stay here n jus waste my life away, tt i shou go out ere n look 4 opportunity 2 get rich... basically he wans me 2 go [insert his plc of choice] n do [insert his business idea]... n e results wou b [insert his ideal results], wch is normally jus earnin lots of $$ la... -_-" haizzz... den i was like "ok!! look at ur hair!! r u happy??" ~_~ den he was like,"ok... dis is much beta..." so i hurried off 2 clean my scissors all... but he went on.... -_- sayin tt i haf 2 learn 2 expand our $$... den i was like, cant we jus let it grow on int in e bank?? den jus live on tt int?? obviously tt was nt e ans he was lkin 4... cos he said,"so u never tot of takin care of ur parents aft tt?? u 1 us 2 jus live off a pathetic smll sum of int??" *stabs myself* T_T

do not

do nt do sum tins... sum tins r beta nt 2 b done... jus pull e blindfold over... take watever u're given... lie 2 urself... ur backbone's melted anyway... n so is e rest of urself...

do nt do tt... or make tt ur last...

mahjong matinee

tts rite.. played mj e whole aftnn plus nite also 2dae!! ^_^ heh... i actually woke up early jus 4 it lor... woke up ard 1pm 2dae... wahahha... XD

but suai suai it was rainin 2dae... but heng heng cam drivin n picked all of us up... ~_~ heh... so anyway, we started playin immediately once we riched cam's grandma's hse, but since none of us had eaten yet, all v hungry... so called 4 mac delivery... waited damn bloody long n e guy still haven come w/ our food!! >_< we all hungry till almost no strength 2 play mj liao lor... haha... but at last, e guy finally came... n he 4got 1 drink... >_<* but nm, cos he also gave us n extra bag of burgers n nuggets by mistake!! wahahah... got more food 4 free!! n even got discount 4 e drink dey 4got!! wahahaha... XD so stuffed our face w/ food, n back 2 e mj table it was 4 more gruelin battles of "pong" n "chi"!! heh... ^_^

but 2dae no luck lea.. lost $21... eh.... actually miscounted lea... its $24 la... T_T but well, i had fun anyway... ^_^

but i tink we had more fun last time whn it was 10, 20 cent... nw 20, 40 cent like v stressed like tt... den we more black face all... cos we can lose up 2 20, 30 bucks... whl last time only few bucks few bucks 1... haizzz... shou we change back?? hmmmm.. nah... nw more excitin also.... wahahhaha.... XD

thursdies comedies

thurs nite is rilly comedy nite man!! heh... scrubs, 8 simple rules, drew carey show, less dan perfect!! love each n everyone of em!! XD

i realise i spend alot of time alone... whn my parents r dwnstairs watchin tv, i'm in my sis rm usin my comp... whn ey come upstairs 2 watch tv... den i go dwnstairs 2 catch my thurs' comedies... n whn my parents r overseas, i'm definitely alone 24/7... if u guys dun visit me or drag me out of e hse, i can seriously stay contactless w/ another human bein 4 days, esp whn my sis goes 2 stay at her bf's hse or sumtin... anyway, i rilly m alone alot huh... jus me n my comp, n tv 2... ~_~

sumtimes i wish sum1 wou come join me n watch tv w/ me actually... but every1's b z... T_T i rmb a time whn i was rilly happy... i tink it was whn i was 17... i was startin 2 skip sch den... mich came over 2 my hse, n we, mich, my yger sis n i laid out mattresses infrnt of e tv on my dwnstairs livin rm... i rmb it was a thurs nite, n dey were showin tt thurs nite jap drama series... abt 3 guys n a cute lil boy... ^_^ n it was nice n cosy all w/ e air con on ril cold n all... 3 girls cosyin up 2gether... i tink tts 1 of my happiest times... havin company... noein i'm skippin e nxt day's sch... XP nt havin a care in e world...

ignorance is bliss... e longer u live, e less happier u can get... i tink 17 was my peak... i had no more forced "sch"(like pri n sec) 2 weigh me dwn, i bought my precious lifetime companion(my comp) which has given me more reasons to live on, cos it gave me my world of animes n mangas... haha... anyway, den, life was only abt frenz, bridge, my animes n mangas... but nw, my mind is clouded by tins other dan dose... n even if i were 2 quit sch n all, i stil wun get back e happiness i had at 17... cos e tins tt i've learned ese yrs has changed me... i no longer can b tt 17 yr old girl anymore...

knowledge kills happiness...

officially fucked

its 4.30am... i'm stil nt slpin... nt even slpy... gotta wake up 4 sch later at 10... >_<

ere's rilly sum days i feel like killin myself... 2dae wou b 1... my heart feels so heavy... all e tins goin on ard me makes it so hard 2 keep myself lite... no wonder i sooooo fat!! waahahha... XD no la... rilly eat 2 much liao la... heh... ~_~

anyway, my uol exams' definitely comin in a mth's time... n i seriously wonder if i'm gonna b sittin at tt desk lkin at e pp infrnt of me, writin my name dwn, n handin it up str... untouchin any qns cos ere's nt even 1 i can write any rubbish on... god.... call me incorrigible, but its nt tt i regret nt studyin n all, but i seriously regret takin dis cos up!! i mean seriously!! i'm rilly nt cut out 4 sch!! my attention span is nt meant 4 sch at all... n call me spoilt all u wan, i cant make myself do sumtin i dun 1 2... i'm nt stubborn, but obstinate... tts y i end up doin soooo many wrong tins in life... arrrrggghhhh.... i rilly feel like bangin my head on tt wall n hopefully dyin nw... i noe i run... i love 2 run... more dan 1/2 my life has bn abt runnin 4m 1 tin 2 another... n deep dwn, i feel tt no 1 can stop me 4m doin tt, tts y no 1 can... i belif tt only i can stop myself... but it aint time yet... i'm seriously officially a fucked up livin tin... pls throw me in2 e rubbish bin nw...

fifty seven

its my dad's bday 2dae... actually it shou b ytd since nw is 12 apr already... anyway, went 2 tony roma's 2 celebrate... 2nd time i'm eatin ere btw... ~_~ yes... u guys can call me sua ku all u wan... -_- anyway, my sis had a voucher 4 a 1 for 1 appetiser... so we ordered 1 sampler appetiser wch had 4 spicy chkn wings, 4 baked potato skins topped w/ potato n bacon, n 4 mozzarella sticks!! loved e mozzarella sticks most!! heh.. anyway, so we got another sampler appetiser free!! ^_^ o!! n e best part is ey came w/ 3 diff dips wch all i loved!! tomato salsa, sum cheesy sauce n sour cream!! ^_^ den we also ordered a reg slab of baby back ribs(8 bones)... e meat was nice, juicy n tender... n dis came w/ 2 servins of coleslaw(cos my parents were complainin tt ere's 2 much meat... ~_~)... n we also had 1 6 inch long bread w/ garlic spread 2 go w/... haha... n we ate till rilly full liao lor... haha... can u belif my family?!?! o well, e bill came 2 a ttl of $52... wch is pretty ok la... n at least my dad din go complainin dis time... guess its his bday n his mood is gd or sumtin la... ^_^

is it me or r most of my entries abt food!?!? wahaha... XD

watched inside man btw... nice!! ^_^ i wished i had dose diamonds!!! haha... XP

today's menu

ok i just read angele's blog abt wat she ate all... tts y i'm bloggin abt it 2... haha... here goes:

1. my vitamin(i'm gonna list every single tin i put in2 my mouth k... XP)

2. sum of jas' ice-cream

3. fried mars bar w/ choc ice-cream (dis was nt bad... doh i expected beta... esp whn we waited more dan 5 mins 4 it... n i gobbled it dwn in less dan 2 mins!! haha...)

4. a bttle of green tea(thirsty aft e unhealthy snack ma... haha...)

5. 1 bar of boost choc!! (dey're sellin it at $2 4 2 bars at 7-11!!! hw can i resist rite?!?! haha...)

6. sum plum juice(c a pattern?? heh...)

7. a banana(finally!! sumtin healthy at last!! XD)

8. toblerone choc!!!

so s u can c... today's menu comprises of mainly chocs... i swear i'm gonna fall sick soon!! n get fat 2!! >_<

anyway, i was doin my surfin n forum postin whn my dad came dwn at i tink 4am... n we tok abt wat i'm doin... n i finally told him e truth abt studiotraffic... >_< i feel so shit 4 makin such a big mistake!! anyway, i tried 2 make him understd e whole online $$ makin tin i'm doin, aldoh it stil looks more like i'm $$ losin instd... haha... sadzzzzz... T_T anyway, he said i shou follow him instd all.. n i noe or shou i say plan 2 do forex in e future... but nt nw yet... told him i rilly wanna try 2 make sum $$ out of dis autosurf/hyip industry 1st... i mean i may haf lost quite abit all... but tts bcos i was inexperienced... i wouldnt say i'm a pro nw... but i've learn a couple of tins along e way... n i'm makin my last $30 last a way longer time dan e previous $70... ~_~ n also e $30 is nw $40!! i've made ard $10!! ^_^ so eventually, i'll earn back my capital n hopefully more also 2 cover wat i lost in studiotraffic(tough chance doh... -_-")... n i've also bn makin frens, sharin info n all... it's nt jus 4 e $$(yeah rite... haha...), but its valuable experience 2... heh...

well, our conversation jus ended in disagreement(e conversation btwn my dad n i if u've 4gotten... haha...)... so ya... he finally went back 2 slp n left me alone... haizzz... i mean we din disagree abt wat i'm doin, actually he jus din tink mine is worth riskin at all, but more of disagree in e methods 2 use in forex... his wou b v competitive, opportunity seizin kinda way... whl mine is more laid back n earns lesser dan his does... but e tin is, he has a family 2 support, i dun... tts y i'm nt pressured 2 earn like he does... sum1 told me i'm half baked... tryin 2 tink smart but doin tins 1/2 correct... m i rilly goin abt tins e wrong way?? but i rilly tink tt tins also makes sense my way... >_< anyway, i'm skippin sch 2dae cos its already 7am n my class most prob starts at 2pm.. so ere's nt enuff time 2 slp n all... c!! tt makes perfect sense 2 me!! wahahaha... XD

watchin couplin

couplin's rilly funny!! its abt 3 guys n 3 girls inter related one way or another... hmmm.. actually reminds me of e show "frens"... jus tt deir every joke is abt sex... wahahha... its a british comedy btw... so sum wun b used 2 deir accent... doh i tink in dis 1, deir accent's nt 2 strong at all.. ^_^

anyway, dere's susan n steve, a couple... pretty much e most sane n dwn 2 earth ppl in e show... den ere's susan's ex bf, patrick, e typical flirt who only tinks w/ his huge dick, wch is said 2 make other guys feel inferior... haha... n ere's steve's ditzy ex gf, jane, totally unrealistic n lives in her own fantasy world like tt... hmmm... like phoebe in frens i guess, n patrick's joey?? haha... anyway, susan also has a best fren called sally, e totally paranoid abt everytin kind, abit like monica... heh... n if i'm nt wrong, sally used 2 b sch mates w/ jane i tink... c all e inter related links all?? heh... n of cos ere's e loser freak jeff, whom i tink makes me luff e hardest lor... he's susan's colleague... he's like e loser who never gets laid, n says e stupidest tins infrnt of girls he meets... like seriously!! he was mistaken 2 b a psycho who has a fetish 4 amputatin ppl's legs!! n e girl even tinks he has a wooden leg!! XD anyway, wateva comes out of his mouth is pure rubbish la!! haha... but nw he finally has a gf, who's his boss actually, heh... she's like him 2... toks rubbish infrnt of ppl she likes, but jeff is stil more rubbish dan her la... haha...

so anyway, e 3 guys will hang at e bar together tokin abt e probs dey meet(mostly abt steve's probs... haha...) n hw dey can stupidly make tins get 4m bad 2 worse... haha... whl e girls will hang at another corner of e bar bitchin abt everytin else... haha... rilly funny la!! shou catch it if u haf e chance.... ^_^

so tts abt it 4 couplin... i've got no sch tml!! yeah~~~ goin out shoppin w/ jas 2!! ^_^ heh...

n aldoh i noe tt i'm nt sum stupid 15 yr old fan girl, but i rilly tink WAT is cute la... i'm watchin deir mtv rite nw, n dose 2 boys have tt boyish cute looks tt i like la... haha... XD

cant slp

help!! its 1pm already n i stil haven slp!! >_<

e whole mornin i've bn postin on forums, got a rilly active poster jus joined... den we've bn sorta postin n replyin each other... haha... earnin $$ 2gether ma... wahaha... den he intro me dis cool prog whr u get paid cash whn ppl click on ur ref link!! so cool!! so i was b z changin all my forum's sig 2 include my ref link... so ya.. all mornin doin ese kind of shit... -_-"

i shou rilly go 2 slp la... zzzZZzzz...

his snore

>_<

walao... i was jus quietly doin my work in e livin rm, plannin 2 pretty much slp ere 2nite... but my dad had 2 come out n watch his teletxt n stuff on e nxt sofa... nxt tin i noe, he was slpin... n he started snorin... its nt e usual snorin whr its jus like additional backgrd noise, his starts soft, den it starts 2 increase in vol, n e grand finale is a thunderous snore wch makes me jump out of my sofa!! seriously!! his soft 2 frighteninly thunderous snores repeatedly went on n on n on!!! until like 20 mins of it, i seriously gave up!! if nt i will die of a heart attack soon!! so anyway, i started packin my stuff n movin em 2 my sis rm... n whn i was gonna move e last tin wch is my comp, he finally wakes up... -_-" n den he opns his mouth n says in mandarin,"wat r u doin?!?! its gonna b dawn soon n u stil dun slp!!" wtf............ -_- hw m i supposed 2 slp w/ u frightenin e hell out of me w/ ur snore...... man..... anyway, he actually goes back in2 his rm den.... rilly.... like wtf..... waste my time movin all my stuff 2 my sis rm... -_- <-- my face seriously lks like dis rite nw...

jack's plc

went 2 jack's plc 2 eat jus nw 2 celebrate our 7th... bn a pretty long time since we celebrated it... but in my opinion, it's jus another excuse 4 us 2 eat... -_-" anyway, e steak was good, e soup was nice, e carrots were hard, e brocoli was ok, e garlic bread was fine 2, e potato was so-so n e peach dessert was nutin impressive... tt wraps it up... haha... o ya, i 4got e appetiser wch was sum mushroom stuffed w/ crab n submerged in cheese!!! e cheese!!! ^_^ haha... so tts abt it... no la... haven add e pretty bill tt comes aft... haha... got 2 use my visa mini again!! yeah~~~ ^_^ doh it'll b burnin another hole in my already depletin savins at e end of e mth... ~_~" o well, $44 4 a 1 set dinner shared by 2 ppl aint so bad la... haha... we dun do it all e time anyway... heh... n mich had e card wch shaved off e service charge only actually... haha... n stupid la... e $5 voucher she brought couldnt b used 2dae... -_-"

nice song

heard dis nice song at far east whn i was shoppin w/ jas 2dae... but dey were playin e eng version... it sounded v punk/rockish lor... den i even went s far s 2 ask e shop keeper wats e song name all... haha... but whn i got hme 2 d/l it, i couldnt find e rockish version lea... only found plain, borin, slow, basically e original version i guess... sad... but in e end i found e chinese version... sounds more up beat 2!! ^_^ so i got pretty addicted 2 d/lin 1 version aft another of dis song... n puttin all 10 versions(includes mp3 n midi formats... haha...) 2 play repeatedly on my wm playlist nw... wahhaha... XD

i found a few smaller sized mp3 versions 2 use s my hp ringtone!! n uploaded e chinese version 2 play here on dis blog... heh... i'm soooooo in love w/ dis song!! ^_^ n here's e lyrics!!

分开旅行 - 刘若英 & 黄立行

我选择去洛杉矶 你一个人要飞向巴黎 尊重各自的决定

维持和平的爱情 相爱是一种习题 在自由和亲密中游移

你问过太多次我爱不爱你 BLACK BLACK HEART

SEND 给你我的心 计划是分开旅行啊 为何像结局

我明白躺在你的怀里 却不一定在你心里

巴黎下了一整天雨 不想要去证明 也不知道怎样证明

相爱是两人事情 我不喜欢你怀疑 怀疑爱是可怕的武器

谋杀了爱情 我在这里本来是晴朗好天气

BLACK BLACK HEART SEND 给你我的心 计划是分开旅行啊

为何像结局 我明白躺在你的怀里 却不一定在你心里

巴黎下了一整天雨

BLACK BLACK HEART SEND 给你我的心 计划是分开旅行啊

为何像结局 我明白躺在你的怀里 却不一定在你心里

巴黎下了一整天雨

休息一下不需要那么的密集 不必每一秒钟都黏在一起

(两个人分开去旅行)

你问我爱不爱你 这个不是个问题 早就说过需要空间才能继续

(两个人分开去旅行)

我也真的不希望你离去 我们就试试看各走各的路 嘘 别哭

(两个人分开去旅行)

这个只是个短短的不见 别搞的那么复杂 你不是一直说要去巴黎吗

(两个人分开去旅行)

well today

finally went 2 sch at last... aldoh i woke up late... i tink tt i'm no longer affected by my hp alarm anymore... but luckily valerie called me... so i hurried out of bed n all... den i realised my parents nt hme... 4 a split sec, i rilly wanted 2 jus 4get abt goin 2 sch la... but aft sum consideration, i packed my bkfast in my bag n took a bottle of water n left e hse... seems like my hurryin was superb!! i actually riched sch 15 mins early... -_-" so i called valerie 2 find out she'll take almost another 1/2 hr 2 get here... -_-" so i walked ard ps waitin 4 her... den we both went in 2gether, late... haha...

it was weird rilly... suddenly e whole class rm was filled up w/ students... O_O students or shou i say classmates i never new i had b4... heh... den i stared at e brd, n it jus stared back at me... nutin made any sense 2 me... den i realised i was in a totally foreign territory!! so i ended up jus crappin w/ valerie... tokin abt wat she's bn doin, wat i've bn doin... hw we're so gonna die 4 e comin big uol exam... haha...

den she ask me 2 go 4 sum slimmin spa massage tin w/ her... say free 1... so since i haf time till i meet jas also, n its FREE!! haha... so i went w/ her lor... but whn we got ere, dey say ppl who r under wt nt eligible 4 it... so had 2 chk wt n ht 1st... valerie jus made it on e dot... she's 45kg n 155cm... n whn it was my turn, i'm 44kg n 157cm... UNDER WT!!! omg!!! seriously!!! i dun look e least bit under wt la... valerie looks so much more skinnier dan me lor!!! or maybe cos i lack e boobs tin... n also maybe cos i'm jus made up of fats n no muscles... -_- anyway, so i was sent packin again... came back 2 my sch comp lab n did my surfin work n bloggin 2... heh...

stil haf like n hr over b4 jas finis work... haizzz.. sianzzz... i cant access my e-gold account here 2, so i cant rilly do any work on e forums... n also dun fil like doin any forum postin work... got my 1st forum postin bonus ytd actually!! ^_^ got $1 4 posting 100 posts... wahahha... sounds pathetic rite.. o well... still money anyway...

well, e librarian is kickin me out... T_T so ya... gtg~~~~

happy berry

heh... jus watched ice age 2 jus nw... yeah~~~ ^_^ pretty funny la... esp tt stupid squirrel... haha... n quite swt la... mani is e father, ally is e mom, diego is e uncle who eats e kids who annoys mani... wahaahha... so cute!!!! heh... i wonder i watched ice age 1 w/ who... did i watch it w/ u mich?? or did i watch it w/ my 1st ex?? hmmm... rilly cant rmb lea... o well... who cares... :P

so everytins gd n fine nw... i'm happy... ^_^ even e tot of havin 2 go sch tml isnt bringin me dwn.... haha... well, sch's only 1 n 1/2 hr tml anyway... XD den its off 2 comp lab 4 e day's surfin work n den shoppin w/ jas!! ^_^ bet she's all excited abt it.... so m i!! cos she'll b payin me e $200 tml... wahahah.... XP

anyway, was told nt 2 slp 2 late... but oops... lk at e time... yawnzzzzz... nitezzzZZzzz~~~ u_u

woke up

woke up

surfed my stuff

chk e forums

2 lazy 2 post any replies so i'll do it later i guess

chk my e-gold acc only 1 payment came in so far e other was in b4 i went 2 slp 2dae anyway

mom came in 2 chk on me ask me stuff told her my sch timetable changed no sch 2dae

brush teeth wash face

ate my vitamin

wash my bottle at last tink e last time i washed it was mid or end of last wk wahahah

stared at e chocs O_O but decided nt 2 eat em yet since i had 2 wait another 15 mins b4 my vitamin is digested

bloggin nw

15 mins up!! chocs here i come!! XD

help me

i dunno y

i cant stop

i nid help

i'm addicted

nw i understd y dose ppl blog so much... blogspot rilly makes bloggin easy man.... haha... XP

brrr coldddd

it freezes here...

funny why it cant seem to numb the pain..

maybe i gotta gif it more time...

past paste

my sis has gone 2 pick my parents up 4m e air port... countdwn 2 e end of my freedom... T_T

dis is e time whr i tink of e past 1 mth... all e happenins n nt so happenins... reminiscin... regrettin... but ere's no pt in doin so is ere?? wats done's done... no matter hw much or hard i tink abt it, i cant change e past... i can only live 4 e present... cherish n treasure wat i haf nw... instd of livin in e shadows of b4... if nt, i may jus lose wat i haf nw...

i gotta start packin up n movin back upstairs in2 my sis rm soon... clearin e last trace of e past 1 mth... tml, is a new beginnin 4 me... luckily i got no sch tml!!! yeah~~~ ^_^

n 2 my darlin, i love n miss u soooooo much!!! i'm sooooo happy u're finally on ur way hme 2 me at last!! i hope my mom treated u well overseas... she beta nt haf dropped or scratched u either!! anyway, we'll play more mj whn u get back k!! ^_^ n dun tink i've only bn slackin away, i've done sum hwk 2!! ere's a new ringtone here waiting 4 u 2 use!! my precious nokia 7360!! u're so lucky 2 have me who spends so much time n effort on pamperin u!! wahahaha... XD

different shoes

pls dun ask me 2 put myself in others shoes... i cant... everyone's experienced diffe tins... i cant put myself in ur shoes, n u cant in mine 2... imaginin n rilly goin thru it is totally diffe... u'll never understd wat i went thru n vice versa... everyone has differences... we dun expect ppl 2 understd dem, but instd, discover n accept... if acceptin is impossible 4 u 2 do it, den it jus means we cant get along... like my dad 4 eg... he's impossible 2 get along w/... only ppl like his fren john can get along w/ him cos he's a multi-faced guy whom only sees e benefit my dad gives him...

i wear my fav pair of shoes... n wear em day aft day... never changin em... till ere's a hole n rain water seeps in on rainy days...

heh... ~_~ part 2

still got abt n hr b4 i go meet mich...

parents comin back tml... T_T dis is my last nite of freedom!! >_<

killed a cockroach jus nw in e kitchen w/ e almighty pyrethre... ^_^ love tt tin man!! it kills cockroaches w/out leavin tt disgustin smell!! but its pretty drainin 2 chase e cockroach all over e kitchen 4 abt 5 mins b4 it finally drops dead... so aft tt i decided 2 reward myself 2 sum grapefruit juice n apple crumble ice-cream... ~_~" heh... i beta cycle it off later man!!

no progress at all on my animes.. sad sad... tried watchin prince of tennis ytd, but fell aslp aft 2 epis man... dunno y i find it quite a drag... but i'm already at epi 160++ less dan 20 more epis till e end of dis series!! so it'll rilly b wasted 2 gif up nw... haha... ~_~"

so anyway, gotta run... time 2 go meet mich... heh... ^_^

heh... ~_~

1stly, thanks guys... i'm glad we met up jus nw... n even doh i keep doin otherwise... u guys r stil ere 4 me... i noe i rilly shou stop bein so negative n tink tt u'll leave me over dis... bcos time n time again, u've all proved me wrong... n assurin me tt once again... i'm rilly grateful... n i'm rilly sorry tt i keep disappointin u guys again n again... but i rilly wanna give it 1 more try... n i noe u guys understd or more like accept it 4 nw... thanks v much... :)

on w/ lighter stuff, couplin was rilly funny jus nw... ^_^ naked theme 2dae... heh... it makes me tink tt ese ppl must rilly b confident of deir bodies 2 b able 2 std naked infrnt of ppl, a whole lot of ppl includin strangers... haha... i mean 2 b able 2 jus std ere naked n look rilly shocked or sumtin, i'll never do tt... i'll immediately run n hide man... but well, its jus a show... n i dun tink i'll ever b s ridiculous s em 2 get myself caught in such a situation... heh.. :P

progress on my animes... ^_^ watched quite a few last nite... nw i haf only a lil less dan 200 epis 2 go i tink.. ~_~" o well... i like hantsuki... so swt e story... its dose typical, guy meets girl, girl gonna dy kinda story la... but e tins tt he does 4 her is so swt... 2 bad i'm nt dyin.... wahahaha... XP

speakin of wch, i shou go watch sum nw la... dun tink i'll haf much chance 2 do so whn my parents come back... T_T