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i miss bein skinny... or at least skinnier dan nw... like 5 kgs less... 45kg... haizzz... i cant belif i wanna b 45kg whn i used 2 tink tt 42kg is ideal but 39kg wou b best... XD nw tt i tink abt it, i prob haf 2 eat nutin 2 b tt skinny liao lor... anyway, every1's bn tellin me i'm fat, even my own mom wanna send me 4 slimmin treatment la... T_T i've bn lookin at my old photos esp e ones b4 baby n i were 2gether... T_T i wan my old body back!!!!! X( i wasnt like super skinny, but i din haf giant tighs n arms or a huge belly lor... n my face wasnt e chubbiest tin u saw either... T_T so anyway, i noe its e xxx makin me fat, or is it?? maybe its e increased amts of fd i eat nw or e lack of exercise or sumtin else... but anyway, i tink i'll start w/ e sauce diet... s all of u noe, i eat sauces like ey were e main course... XD plus cheese 2... omg!!! does dis mean i cant eat so much cheese 2!??! but cheese is nt under sauces ba... XD hmmm... if i stay away 4m cafe cartel, pizza hut n all other pizza plcs, i shul b able 2 go cheese free ba... ok, 4 e sake of my old 45kg body, i shul stop w/ e extreme cheese eatin habit la... haizzzz... T_T sugar is still sumtin i cant cut dwn doh... i mite s well only drink plain water 4m nw on lor... its ptless 2 drink tasteless swt drinks anyway... so i'll stil tink abt it... s 4 exercisin, hmmmmmmmm... 2 lazy 2 wake up early 2 go joggin... plus i dun like joggin... rather blade, but cant get fried by e sun, n baby doesnt like exercisin at nite... T_T my frens r actually goin 2 swim on wkdays evenins whl i'm stuck at work lor!! X( i'm stil workin on e exercisin part, but doubt i'll do much exercisin doh... since it doesnt seem 2 work on me also anyway... XD n lastly, xxx... gif it up?? haizzz... i'll cont tinkin abt it la...