hayama akito

ahhhhhhhhhh~~~ I LOVE KODOCHA!!! ^_^ i've finally got e time 2 take out e whole series n start watchin em... e last time i stopped at epi 50... nw i've jus finis watchin another 30 epis... dey're finally in junior high... heh... hayama akito's sooooooooooooooo cute!!! actually nt cute, he's so coooooollllll!!! XD~~~~ heh... cant help droolin over him man... heh... n nw he's even taller!! wayyyy taller~~~ lk soooo skinny all... XD~~~ heh... ahhhh... i love obana's drawins... everybody lks so skinny... heh... like ai yazawa's nana... ^_^ sadly bokura ga ita's nt tt skinny lea... but ok la... nt fat either la... but rite nw, i rilly prefer hayama 2 yano... cos stupid yano keeps abusin my poor nana... T_T lie 2 her all... doh i noe he loves her tts y he lied la... but hayama...... aahhhhhhh~~~ XD~~~ his badass cool attitude... his eyes, his expressions, his reactions, e way he toks, moves, walks.... ^________^ but e subbin was horrendous lor... def rubbish subbin 1/2 e time lor... but at least it forces me 2 stop relyin on e subs n try 2 listen 2 wat ey're rilly sayin... doh my jap stil sux big time la... still only understd e easy common phrases... haizzz haizzz... 4 yrs of anime liao lea... stil at dis lvl... T_T sad sad...

anyway, was pretty depressed last wk i tink... dunno y also... maybe cos i'm fat?? haha... but aft watchin kodocha, tink my mood's all beta again... ^_^ i actually wanted 2 finis watchin all e kodocha epis by 2dae, but wat 2 do... i actually haf a life... ppl actually wanna spend time w/ me... haha... XP ah well, i do tink i'm gonna bcome a hermit soon... w/ no job n stuff, i'll b shuttin myself in all e time, unless u guys call me out la... n if tt job agency woman rilly never call me, wch i do hope so la, den i tink i rilly wanna lead my life like tt 4ever liao... no more ctt w/ any1 else bsides e ppl i noe nw, most prob try rilly rilly hard 2 start gettin involved w/ my dad's forex... if nt hw 2 survive rite?? ha... livin like tt til i die... but life never goes e way i plan em... its so ptless 2 even plan man... its even more ptless 2 blog... -_- arrggghhh... tinkin abt life alwiz frustrates me huh... its only whn i'm engrossed in my animes tt its actually pleasant... doh e topics 2 tok abt w/ ppl is greatly lessen... i rilly haf nutin 2 tok abt w/ ppl anymore... ere's like dis barrier ard me liao... n bcos i belif so strongly in it 2, i guess, i'll rilly bcome a hermit... hmmm... i'm repeatin rnt i?? i tink i rilly dunno whr dis blog entry is goin....... -_-

stupid theories

i cant slp... cant go back 2 slp actually... cos i was woken up by mich's sms... -_- actually nah... nt rilly la... tink its e air-con tt was buggin me la... since i'm still bloody hell sick... its bn 2 whole wks nw... X( anyway, ur bday is drawin near... yet i came out n told u dose terrible tins... haizzz... sum kind of human bein i m... hurtin e ppl who cares abt me... but rite nw, at dis v moment, i dun care... i cant b bothered w/ wat any1 tinks of me... i jus feel like tearin dwn e self i've bn carryin infrnt of u... n b left alone... i hate conflicts so much i'll do anytin 2 release myself 4m it, comin up w/ solutions wch makes me realise hw unfeelin i rilly m... n it all falls in my hands... 2 choose e path of no ret or remain e way u tink i m... either way, i'll never b happy... cos ere's no such tin s bein happy... happy is another made up word, along w/ perfect n definite... in other words, feelins r made up... society tells us dis is wat we shoul feel whn dis or tt haps... so since we r brought up like tt, dese feelins bcome like our "common sense" n so we make em up accordinly... ha... my stupid theories, tt everytin does nt exist... i tink i'm finally tired... i've done enuff damage 4 1 nite... i wish i cou say dis was all jus a joke, but tt wou mean i haf 2 stop blievin in it 1st or erasin e part of me tt came 2 realise all dis...

genting trip

gentin trip was fun alrite... nice cold weather unlike sg... but e stupid fog spoilt 1/2 my day of takin e rides... i din rilly feel like i played 2 my hearts content cos e rest had no balls... haha... mich was slightly beta, but stil chicken... XP e rides were ok only anyway, i tink i def haf 2 go US nxt time 4 em la... but anyway, we sure did play allloootttt of bridge, n a lil of e new game... heh... n ere's e eatin alot part 2... wahaha... but food n stuff aint tt cheap ere lor... i calculated tt i spent a total of RM130++ like tt... RM50 on theme park tick, RM80 on food... -_-" haha... so anyway, it was all gd till e casino... had a pretty big dispute... haizzz... makes me lose more hope in dis tin called livin... wats ril n wats fake?? e tin called care is generated 4m e heart or e brain calculates it up?? everytin tt we claim n do, r ey genuine or jus e brain tellin us dis is wat we shou do cos dis is wat we tot we r like?? mich jus says i tink 2 complicatedly but i doubt i'm anymore complicated dan any1 else... i'm jus stubborn, v stubborn in believin in my own way n idea of life... anyway, its nt solved, never will b... i jus haf 2 suck it all up n cont livin till it blows up again 1 day i guess... -_-

well, thanks 2 dis gentin trip, i had n idea hw 2 quit earlier... told my colleague tt i cant come 2 work nxt mon n tue cos goin gentin w/ frens 2 celebrate her bday... wahahha... so dis fri will b my last day!! ^_^ lucky i said nutin 2 em abt goin gentin last wk... den again, its nt surprisin... since i almost never opn my mouth durin e 9hrs here everyday... except 2 eat la... haha... cant wait 2 quit n enjoy my short term retirement!!! wahahah... XD

nana movie

i jus finis watchin e nana live action movie... surprised tt i'm updatin at dis time of e wee hrs?? heh... yeah... i finally decided 2 call in sick later... since i couldnt slp at all!! tok 2 mich til 2 plus... gave up tryin 2 slp at 3am n decided 2 watch nana... i'm goin genting later 2dae anyway, rilly no mood go work liao... wahahah... anyway, more imptly, or at least e reason 4 my update is, i hated dis nana movie!! X( actin was terrible!! looked like sum low budget production n i do applaude e effort 2 make em wear exactly wat e characters wore in e anime, but sum jus looked abit odd... wat i mean is, hachi n nana wears pretty nice outfits, exactly like e 1s in e animes... deir clothes looked like ey at least got a designer 2 esp make em like e anime 1s, but shouji n sachiko n sum others, i feel like deir clothes were found here n ere n put 2gether jus 2 make em look similar 2 e anime's 1... wch rilly looks odd/ugly lor... n e actin!!! X( i swear i cou die... i tink ey sux ril bad, esp shouji!!!! even doh he looks kinda cute, looks bit like e gokusen season 2's tsuchiya, but god he cant act 4 nuts!!! i dun like pract all of em, nana's actin wasnt tt gd, but she sure acted skinny well!! wahaha... damn tt girl's sooooo bloody skinny!! *envy envy* @_@ i tot hachi's actin was e best among all of em, doh it stil sux... she smiles alllooooottttt... its v swt, but seriously... cant she act anytin else?? i guess i had 2 high n expectation 4 it... summo i cou freshly picture all e anime scenes in my head, so at every part i was scrutinisin wat ey missed out or hw badly done it was n wat dey shou b doin instd... i got rilly disappointed at hw ey tried rilly hard 2 copy but failed miserably at it... -_- ok, i'm sorry if i do offend any nana fans out ere, but i'm prob nt in e rite state of mind rite nw... since i haven slpt 4 e past 24hrs yet... =_= so anyway, dis has led me 2 a self proclaimed theory, real life sux ass, animes n mangas can never b reality... T_T i hate bein stuck in dis real world!! X(