braw perms

everytin else feels so small compared 2 e financial prob my family is goin thru... its bn goin on 4 sum time, but only 2dae did it start 2 sink in... in fact its only a few hrs ago tt i realised hw much shit we're in... it started w/ my dad sayin hw hi his blood pressure is each time i tok 2 him abt e calls my banker has bn makin 2 me bcos he refuses 2 listen 2 her anymore... n den it hit me, e wat if sumtin hap 2 him tin... i den tok 2 my sis abt it... n i din feel anymore beta.. worse in fact maybe, cos she painted n even worse pic 4 me 2 c... nw it feels like my will 2 preserve my way of life is dyin out... n naturally, tt leads 2 e 1 tin it alwiz leads 2... e tin i've alwiz kept buried inside... lettin it out 2 breathe every once in awhl only... my every train of tots will alwiz b navigated 2 it... a cycle i cant get out of until tins get beta... but i do wonder if all e terrible tins were 2 play out infrnt of me, wat will i do?? will i do wat i haf alwiz believed i wou eventually do whn i hit a wall??

kong fools

i'm fes 2dae... i'm nt esw... was it e boe part?? havin my ffl dis is killin me... 1/2 of me wanna wah 4 it, e other 1/2 jus wanna guo it n go fse... maybe its bcos of xmas... it pressures me 2 fab cos i dun wba durin dis time of e yr... but thru-out my 22 yrs of life, i stil haven spend iws special... e other twc cos it was more like 1hr wmo n e rest was w/ hsd... -_- i rilly wonder y i was bit 1st plc whn i'm so bloody oad 4m every1... w/ a fss no 1 will eva b able tam at all... anyway, i haf 2 stop wtb al dis shit la... gd nite...

juice meat

i'm rilly n idiot... chasin aft sumtin ich... feelin happy or sad ova yea...
n even dts u said u liked... i dunno wat i shul sod jus so u wcm instd... but on
e other hand, i'm stil fou... no confidence watsoeva tt i can even myl me in
e 1st plc... n ere's stil e "i wou jus b a bty tin 2"... cos ere's sumtin
seriously wwm... but all i can tink of rite nw is whn will i sya... X(