mahjong bitch
mj conflict... god... conflicts will never end... n if dis carries on, i'm gonna lose 1 of e few tins i live 4... n tt is 4 u guys... i noe i was a complete bitch jus nw... i feel like i cannot explain in real life anymore... bloggin is like e only way i can phrase wat i wanted 2 say...
anyway, i jus wanted ur sympathy, tt i lost $38 ytd... i played all e way till "bei feng" den i finally won my 1st 20 cents... i'm nt kiddin... i tink i emptied out my drawer at "nan feng" n had 2 borrow $20 4m cam so tt i cou cont payin em $$... -_- we started w/ a $20 bal, i lost $20, borrowed another $20 n i ended up w/ only $2 left... tt was simply demoralisin k... i mean u shou noe hw tt feels also whn u play w/ aaron n his frens rite??
n 2dae i was also stil losin at 1st rite?? but at least at "nan feng" i managed 2 win a lil back... i agree it was v stupid of me 2 throw my tantrum like tt 4 throwin tt stupid wrong tile... n bein e way i was e rest of e time... tt i def went over brd... but aft tt it was jus hard 2 b back 2 e way i was cos e fit i threw was ridiculously outrageous... n at tt pt of time, i rmbd wat i blogged abt... abt nt bitchin... n realised i was bitchin 2 u abt ytd's losses n tryin 2 get sumtin out of u... i was doin wat i wasnt supposed 2 do!! so i guess, since tins were already tt way, i mite s well jus carry on keepin quiet n stop bein such a clown 2... tt only made me look like i was angry doh... wch i was la, but at myself... doh i did realised tt i started winnin more whn i jus shut up... maybe i've bn wastin 2 much energy bein a clown sumtimes...
anyway, i shou rilly stop bein so worked up whn losin $$ at mj... so e only solution i tot of was dis... i record every profit n loss 4m nw onwrds... its 2 bad i din do dis 4m e start... den at least i wouldnt b so temperamental nw whn i lose cos i guess whn i tink back, i shou haf stil won more den i lost... so wateva it is, i'll jus start on a clean slate... dis may b ril calculative of me... but wateva... i only seem 2 rmb losses more dan winnins, so dis is e only way 2 stop my seriously stupid acts at mj...
but i'm still fed up... i noe its stupid... 2 wanna die over small tins... i fil so irritated tt livin means havin 2 face tins like dese... god... is dis also considered bitchin?? i shou jus shut up rite?? nitezzzZZzzz... -_-
anyway, i jus wanted ur sympathy, tt i lost $38 ytd... i played all e way till "bei feng" den i finally won my 1st 20 cents... i'm nt kiddin... i tink i emptied out my drawer at "nan feng" n had 2 borrow $20 4m cam so tt i cou cont payin em $$... -_- we started w/ a $20 bal, i lost $20, borrowed another $20 n i ended up w/ only $2 left... tt was simply demoralisin k... i mean u shou noe hw tt feels also whn u play w/ aaron n his frens rite??
n 2dae i was also stil losin at 1st rite?? but at least at "nan feng" i managed 2 win a lil back... i agree it was v stupid of me 2 throw my tantrum like tt 4 throwin tt stupid wrong tile... n bein e way i was e rest of e time... tt i def went over brd... but aft tt it was jus hard 2 b back 2 e way i was cos e fit i threw was ridiculously outrageous... n at tt pt of time, i rmbd wat i blogged abt... abt nt bitchin... n realised i was bitchin 2 u abt ytd's losses n tryin 2 get sumtin out of u... i was doin wat i wasnt supposed 2 do!! so i guess, since tins were already tt way, i mite s well jus carry on keepin quiet n stop bein such a clown 2... tt only made me look like i was angry doh... wch i was la, but at myself... doh i did realised tt i started winnin more whn i jus shut up... maybe i've bn wastin 2 much energy bein a clown sumtimes...
anyway, i shou rilly stop bein so worked up whn losin $$ at mj... so e only solution i tot of was dis... i record every profit n loss 4m nw onwrds... its 2 bad i din do dis 4m e start... den at least i wouldnt b so temperamental nw whn i lose cos i guess whn i tink back, i shou haf stil won more den i lost... so wateva it is, i'll jus start on a clean slate... dis may b ril calculative of me... but wateva... i only seem 2 rmb losses more dan winnins, so dis is e only way 2 stop my seriously stupid acts at mj...
but i'm still fed up... i noe its stupid... 2 wanna die over small tins... i fil so irritated tt livin means havin 2 face tins like dese... god... is dis also considered bitchin?? i shou jus shut up rite?? nitezzzZZzzz... -_-
posted by reiyang at 5:26 AM
2 Comments:
isn't bitching..like talking bad about others? haha anyway. u take mj so seriously. its only a game mah. why ur play until like in casino type de? hahah. aiya, dun bear this kind of grudges. find ways to destress! relax, fine enjoyment of life. mj making u too stress le? creating conflicts even. im surprised. u sound really worked up in the two entries. hope u cool down soon. xP
yaya... tts my life... get worked up, b indiffe n get worked up again... cycle goes on n on... i hate it... makes me feel like a human bein... -_-
anyway, dun worry... i'm cooled nw... XD
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