bitchin bitch

i haf a serious major prob, i bitch 2 fuckin much!! n rite nw, i'm stil bitchin!! n its most prob gonna make tins worse or u mite even hate me more instd... but dis is e only way i wanna explain... thru bitch bloggin... cos i'm a fuckin bitchin bitch!!

2dae we were supposed 2 go swimmin, but i woke up 2 mich's sms tt said she wanted 2 play mj 2nite instd cos she cant make it tml, fri... sat she workin, wun b able 2 play mj w/ us 2... so i called cam up 2 c if she can play mj 2dae, wch she said shou b can, but she n kj din wanna play separately, so i had 2 ask u, if u wanna play mj 2nite instd n swim tml... but u said no... u said aaron comin 2 play mj tml so u rather swim 2dae n play mj tml... so i told mich, sorry cannot cos u wanna swim, n tt also means i haf 2 go swimmin 2 n ere'll only b mich, cam n kj left 2 play mj... so cannot la... but i felt quite bad cos mich was quite sad all, in fact all 3 of us r in pretty bad shape... mich broke up w/ ed, i broke up w/ phil n u got ur work stress... mich rilly wanted 2 play 2nite cos she din haf any other plans n she'd end up tinkin of stuff she doesnt wan 2 at hme... tts y she called u 2 ask if cam n kj confirm can play 2nite, will u mind if we played mj instd of swimmin... n u said u wun mind... so whn cam said tt she n kj confirm can play n can also play separately 2 since u din wanna play mj, so i decided 2 go play mj w/ em, since u already said tt it was fine w/ u tt we played mj 2... so whn i told u abt it, u got unhappy... but do u even noe y i felt tt we shou play mj instd??

2dae was e only day mich cou play mj w/ us...

u cou play mj w/ us 2dae, fri n sat...

whn mich broke up w/ ed on tue, i refused 2 go dwn town 2 meet her n rather u guys come dwn pw 2 hang... u scolded me 4 bein calculative n a bad fren... i realised i was wrong n so 2dae, i tot e rite tin 2 do was 2 play mj w/ mich instd...

we can alwiz go swimmin another day, we did cancel our swimmin on tue jus 2 b w/ mich rite??

so whn i told u tt we playin mj 2nite instd u got all unhappy... n i din noe hw 2 make u c all tt, cos maybe me sayin it doesnt mean anytin 2 u... so i called mich 2 complain tt u're unhappy abt it, tt u dun c y we're playin mj instd of swimmin... n so i tot it wou b beta if mich called u 2 tell u e above so tt tins wou b beta... call me selfish, but i dun wanna b blamed 4 sumtin dis way!! i refuse 2 b accused of bein at fault 4 cancellin our swimmin plans!! e only tin i fuckin hate abt myself is 4 bitchin!! 4 alwiz alwiz bitchin!! cos whn she called u, she told u tt i said u were unhappy!! of cos u'd noe tt i called her 2 call u!! me n my bloody bitchin mouth shou jus go 2 hell!! tins got worse n u were jus angry at me n i rilly din noe hw 2 explain 2 u anymore cos u were in a v foul mood already n tellin u anytin more wouldnt make u any happier... so i jus finally shut up... but again... i had 2 go on fumin, n bitchin abt e whole situation... n bein sooooo angry n shit...

n 2dae rilly isnt a gd day at all... w/ all e built up anger 4 everytin, i had 2 come hme 2 my hse dr w/ e key still hangin at e key hole... my sis 4got 2 pull out e dr key aft she got hme jus nw... n since i was scolded by my parents b4 tt 4 4gettin 2 close e gate aft sendin mich off 2 e bus stop ytd, dis is e 2nd time dey caught me, i immediately complained 2 my dad tt my sis 4got 2 pull out e key again 2dae, dis is her i dunno hw many times 2!! n she came out 2 of cos defend herself n said tt she was tired 4m work all tts y, n den she went on by sayin tt leavin e gate opn was more dangerous!! wch i rilly dun tink so... i mean even if ppl can pass thru e gate, ere's no way ey can get in2 e hse cos every window n dr ard e hse wou b locked... but if u left e key at e dr, anybody can jus climb over e stupid gates n opn e dr w/ e key hangin on it n come rite in2 e hse rite?!?! but wateva!! i'm jus so mad!! so mad tt ere's so much bloody conflicts n shit!! dis is deja vu actually... i rmb i felt s mad s dis b4 bcos of all ese shitty conflicts goin on!! n its jus so frustratin!! i hate ese kinds of stupid conflicts!! even if it's solved, it'll jus keep comin back in e future 2!! i feel so irritated by tt tot, tt i rilly tink i shou jus kill myself so tt i dun haf 2 face it anymore!!!!

but tts nt gonna hap is it... its against my fuckin stupid principals!! fuck!!! so it stil boils dwn 2 me n my bitchin ass mouth!! i shou jus shut e fuck up rite!??! i shou never tok abt anytin i'm unhappy abt anymore rite?? i may haf nutin 2 ever say again cos all i've bn doin all my life is bitch tokin...

i shou rilly blif in tt karma tin, cos it rilly is true isnt it?? i bitch n bitch n it comes back 2 me in e forms of conflicts n shit... nw i noe y... its all my bloody fault tt phil wou leave me n cheat on me n all... cos tts karma... i bitch abt him neglectin me all e time even b4 we 1st broke up... tts y he broke up w/ me!!! den even whn we got back, i jus cont 2 bitch abt hw cold he was 2 me, tts y he cheated on me!! its all dis fuckin tin called karma!! each time i bitch, i'm ret w/ a bad consequence!!

so dis is it, i haf 2 stop bitchin... i tink i shou nt opn my mouth 4 a start...