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i tink its rilly time i stopped relyin on e person who takes care of e roof ova my head, e fd on my table, e utilities i use, e occasional car ride 2 my work n stuff... w/out my dad, n my mom 2 since she washes my clothes ~_~, i'd had a taste of wat hardship is like... wch i've prob nvr bn thru b4 in my whole 24yrs of livin... i hate it whn ppl tell me 2 lk at unfortunate ppl w/ no $$ or limbs n shit, cos seriously, deir misfortunate has zilch 2 do w/ me... i'm exaggeratin whn i say i haf a heart devoid of feelins, but i do tink tt its lackin quite abit in e sympathy/morals/conscience dept... call me arrogant, but i do tink i was born lucky, n it may even b true tt my way of tinkin ruined dis lucky life of mine wch cou haf had a future... n if it were possible i shul go 4 a ttl brainwash... reborn myself again... start 4m scratch, n hopefully dis time ard i dun walk dwn dis same dreaded path n instd bcome a norm beta person worthy of life... but i'd den also 4get abt my bond w/ e ppl i care abt nw... mainly my baby n frens... i do tink its fine 2 restart my relationship w/ my family again doh... esp my dad... i wanna stop tinkin n bein e pampered lil girl of his who does wateva she ones jus bcos she noes he'll gif in 2 her eventually... anyway enuff w/ fantasy... e pt of dis post, wch is actually ptless 2 blog abt in e 1st plc, is prob jus 2 jot dwn a promise or resolution i hope i can fulfill in e near future... i wanna lead a life w/ no strings attached... no more bickerin w/ my dad every mornin abt quittin my job n doin businesses n investments w/ him... no more tokin abt travellin all ard e world or movin 2 another country... n def no more askin me 2 find sum1 else beta 2 replc my baby... i've had enuff of doin tins 4 my dad jus bcos i owe him dis comfortable life of mine... i wanna gif it all up... e comforts of everytin in my life fed 2 me on a silver spoon... so, i'm gonna MOVE OUT n rent a plc of my own, n it wou b most preferrable if my baby wou come stay w/ me doh... XD i noe tt wou look like i'm jus shiftin my reliance on2 my baby, but i'll try 2 do more dis time... like washin my own clothes, cookin my own meals, payin my own bills... ok, except doin hsework... i wonder if i stil got enuff $$ left 2 hire my current cleaner aunty 2 clean my hse at least once a wk or once in 2 wks... dis whole plan prob sounds ridiculous... i'd prob luff my head off in e future whn i read back on all dese rash impulsive scribbles of mine... cos atm, it looks like its 95% impossible... but no harm plannin rite?? 1st tin 1st, i gotta start lookin 4 cheap rent near here, wch is near my work plc actually... hmmm... prob only got geylang liao... T_T