officially fucked

its 4.30am... i'm stil nt slpin... nt even slpy... gotta wake up 4 sch later at 10... >_<

ere's rilly sum days i feel like killin myself... 2dae wou b 1... my heart feels so heavy... all e tins goin on ard me makes it so hard 2 keep myself lite... no wonder i sooooo fat!! waahahha... XD no la... rilly eat 2 much liao la... heh... ~_~

anyway, my uol exams' definitely comin in a mth's time... n i seriously wonder if i'm gonna b sittin at tt desk lkin at e pp infrnt of me, writin my name dwn, n handin it up str... untouchin any qns cos ere's nt even 1 i can write any rubbish on... god.... call me incorrigible, but its nt tt i regret nt studyin n all, but i seriously regret takin dis cos up!! i mean seriously!! i'm rilly nt cut out 4 sch!! my attention span is nt meant 4 sch at all... n call me spoilt all u wan, i cant make myself do sumtin i dun 1 2... i'm nt stubborn, but obstinate... tts y i end up doin soooo many wrong tins in life... arrrrggghhhh.... i rilly feel like bangin my head on tt wall n hopefully dyin nw... i noe i run... i love 2 run... more dan 1/2 my life has bn abt runnin 4m 1 tin 2 another... n deep dwn, i feel tt no 1 can stop me 4m doin tt, tts y no 1 can... i belif tt only i can stop myself... but it aint time yet... i'm seriously officially a fucked up livin tin... pls throw me in2 e rubbish bin nw...