sliplast knights

wats w/ sun nites?? i cant seem 2 slp b4 e big work day called mon!! X( last sun i only slpt 1 hr la!! n dis time, i slpt at 12plus n i'm awake nw at 3am... damn it!!!! n later i got a super long n borin meetin 2 attend 2 summo!! its freakin 3 hrs long!! w/ all my bosses sittin ard me!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... help!! i'm afraid wat my supervisor said is gonna come true!! me fallin off my chair!! i nid 2 slp damn it!! T_T

anyway, i saw sw's sms... 1stly, surprised she actually rids my blog... haha... go set up a blog 2 lea... den i can put ur name on my links col!! ^_^ n u can leave it s dead s jas' blog w/ e only movin tin bein ur tagbrd... XD anyway, thanks 4 e sms.... but i'm ok la... i WAS upset only 4 tt 1 day only la... i'm fine nw liao... n i tink i nid tt kind of wake up call also anyway... cos i haf screws loose n lack of common sense sumtimes, ok i mean most of e times... XD so its beta 4 me 2 realise such tins also la...

hmmm... ok, it seems it has come 2 e time of e nite whr i feel like tokin abt issues i norm dun tok abt... so here goes... i tink logically, i'm fine bein alone w/out a partner... but tt stupid longin feelin creeps up every nw n den... i also cant understd y either, whn i clrly noe, i've got no time in e 1st plc 4 anymore unnecessary tins in my life... n also i def dun wanna get hurt by e v tin wch i consider jus a luxury n nt a necessity... n ere's e burdenin tt other person tin 2 bcos of e kind of wrong person i m... its like everybody's left or rite, but i'm neither... i'm jus odd shaped... so i cant fit well w/ any of e left or rite ppl... i'd haf 2 try 2 imitate either a left or rite person whn i'm w/ sum1... n whn i'm finally exhausted of actin n start 2 tear dwn tt facade n jus b myself, tt wou b e end of e relationship... tts jus so meaninless 2 even try bein w/ another lor... unless i can find another odd shaped 1 jus like me... wch prob will nvr hap... -_- y isnt ere any1 else who tinks life's rubbish???? T_T anyway, it doesnt rilly matter actually, i gave it up alrdy... i'm alwiz able 2 gif up on tins anyway, tts e way i've tot myself 2 grow up... n life's jus much easier 2 live tt way... doh every nw n den, i still haf 2 fight off tins i used 2 desire, tins i gave up... its like a nvr-endin battle... life's a stupid nvr-endin battle til we finally die... damn it!!! X(

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another chpt of my life has finally closed ba... a 2 yr long chpt... i rilly tot i was gonna do wat i did 4 e rest of my life, but life's jus like tt huh... unpredictable n ever-chngin... nw a new chpt has started 4 me, but i seriously dunno hw long it'll last 2... but i dun rilly fil like tokin abt it liao... cos i tink 4 e past 3wks i've bn workin ere, i've toked abt it non-stop... n ere's a limit 2 hw much ppl can take... but bein me, i will alwiz push ova e limit n annoy ppl b4 i get it... well, i m actually a talkative person since yg... but whl goin thru life's experiences, i start 2 fear tokin... but every once in awhl, it gets unleashed esp whn i get excited ova sumtin... i was rilly close 2 bein a mute 4 e past few mths of my prev job... all i cou do was play bridge n listen 2 wat every1 had 2 say... but aft switchin 2 dis new job, i got my voice back... but unfortunately, its e irritatin voice la... n besides irritatin, its also rilly mean... so even doh u guys say u love me, ere's a limit 2 tt love... n i may 1 day eventually go over tt limit...

anyway, i watched a live-action jus nw wch said tt love is painful n tough... n seriously, i rilly do agree, i wou rather stay ignorant n block-headed 4eva den 2 fil 4 ppl... n dis feelin is alwiz qn n ridiculed by my mind... i jus cant blif in it in e 1st plc... i dun trust it bein genuine at all... ere's jus no such tin s self-sacrifice, ere's only calculations... so its rilly stupid 2 get hurt by sumtin fake...doh e hurt is also arranged 2 take plc accordinly thanks 2 e calculations, thus makin it fake in a way 2... -_- rubbish... its all rubbish!! pls.... i dun wan so many chpts or pgs in my life pls..................