airtanshern seacurl

u lucky blog, i'm givin u so much attention nwadays lor... XD anyway, all dis tok abt attention seekin all... its either i wasnt like tt 2 begin w/ but every1 kept tellin me i m, n den i started 2 blif i m n thus, i start 2 act my part la, or i'm rilly jus it la even w/out anybody's help rilly... -_-" life is rilly weird man... ok, 1stly dis shall b my last post of my life theories n blah... cos i dun like tokin abt e tins goin on in my head in e 1st plc, n e tins buggin me has more or less bn overcomed in a way... so... c wat i min? i cant b bothered by tins 4 2 long... i guess i stil haf it in me 2 b bo chup aftall... XD wahaha...

guess wat? i 4got wat was e theory i wanted 2 tok abt!! X( o 4get it!!

watched evangelion e movie ytd... damn it sux... T_T it made me hate it all ova again... god... dun do tt 2 me can... bring my hopes all e way up n punch it dwn n stampede all ova it... e movie left us w/ such a bad aft taste tt nobody wanted 2 say anytin abt it, whl i'm e only idiot stil complainin frantically abt it n cryin ova e $6 i lost... T_T o 1 more tin, ey rilly shul haf played e beautiful world song thruout e movie la... e song is so nice lor... wou haf made e movie more bearable at least... -_-

ok, ere's sumtin i dun dare tell anybody at all... tts y i'm only tellin u, my blog... e tin is... since ytd nite... since i got hme 4m e movie... i felt sumtin creepin up on me... n it was.......... e tin calls itself.......... THE FLU!!! yeah... -_- i tink i'm sick again... T_T n we were jus tokin abt it ytd tt i alwiz get sick all, n i was tryin 2 desperately defend my body's immune system... n look wat hap... sianzzz... -_- cant u jus work a lil beta in ere?? i got no 1 else but u 2 protect me 4m illnesses lea... X( anyway, i dwned vit Cs n water all last nite... but 2dae my mucus stil drippin quite a bit... T_T i'm rilly an ILL-fated-person sia... X(

ookiku furikabutte

ookiku furikabutte is a baseball anime wch i'm madly in love w/ even doh i dun understd e game at all no matter hw much i watch it, pausin at every single subtitle n readin it 5 times 2 try 2 digest it... but anyway, i jus finis watchin epi 26, wch is its special last epi... T_T so e tin is, dis epi is abt a boy who wans 2 gif up on baseball aft seein a junior take over his position n play way beta dan him... tinkin tt its a joke 4 him 2 cont playin baseball whn he sux so bad n all... he decides 2 quit, but u noe hw shows r, drama drama, n boom, its solved, he realises his mistake n works hard 2gether w/ everybody at baseball, den duh its happily eva aft... but seriously, no matter hw many more such animes i watch i aint gonna learn 4m em... i haf pretty much almost e same prob s him, but guess wat? i aint changin... ere wun b a happily eva aft 4 me... well, cos happily eva aft dun exist anyway...

i'm rilly slpy nw... so nitezzzZZZzzz...

aunt tiethird

dis is 1 2 many updates 4 u huh... ere is no 1 who wanna read such negative tots of mine rite... i noe i shou jus escape 2 my animes n bury myself in it instd... but i dunno y i keep comin back here 2 vent it all out... X( e bitterness i feel is rite up 2 my throat n i'm tryin my hardest 2 stop myself 4m vomittin it all out...

e trigger dis time wou b my sis... n o paranoid me wou b able 2 lump everytin 2gether n make sumtin out of nutin... conspiracy theories or e "truth" or wateva, u name it, chances r i've alrdy came up w/ it... n ese assumptions of mine wou cos ese snowball effects, thus, here i m bloggin... ha... -_-"

anyway, gettin back on track, my sis' discouragin behaviour is e trigger... well, tt may nt b true since i'm e kind of person who jus love 2 find sum1 or sumtin 2 blame so tt i actually haf sumtin 2 blog abt... -_- so dun blif anytin u read here bcos it all came 4m a delusional nutcase... so anyway, s i was sayin, e perpetrator 4 all ese discouragin remarks n reactions is nt only my sis, but also almost every single person i pass by... obviously i've only got my own self 2 blame 4 it in e 1st plc, but tts nt my pt... my pt is, i'm soft, softer dan even a freakin baby... n i dun mean physically la... i meant it like a spoilt brat kinda way... tt i seem 2 live on ppl's encouragement... so whn e whole world's against me, i crumble... its weird, cos i dun norm gif a damn abt wat any1 tinks n all, yet dis time it jus feels so darn miserable 2 nt b approved of?? but wateva... i'll get over it... it jus rilly bugs me at e moment...

n i noe, tt e tins tt sprout out of my mouth r useless... i mean ey r nutin compared 2 ur probs of marriage n work, a ril job wch i dun haf... i min its like jus realisin tt my life's a bloody lie... ere's nutin worth it at all... a sham tts wat it is... n i jus dun c e pt in cont it... i'm like a waste of ppl's time?? so ya, i shou nt tok abt anytin related 2 me anymore rite... until i actually get a ril job n contribute 2 dis family rite... -_-

god... dis is wat i mean... i'm jus full of disgustin bitterness... -_-

tool march

ok, let me complain a lil bit abt e super sad n pathetic tin called my l.i.f.e... its so narrow... its so bloody squeezy here la... no room 4 much tins... only room 4 2 tins, 1 is self n e other is centered... n i hate dose 2!!! X( but sadly, i'm stuck w/ em 4 life... -_-*** haizzz...

its currently e dwns n dwner la... dunno y it feels so dps lately... feel like n emo wreck most of e time... i easily get dgt w/ myself nwadays... like nt understdin a norm person's pt of view... only seein tins thru my eyes... n nt filterin tins proply... so words escape w/out enuff consideration, n regret soon sets in... T_T i feel so freakin bad abt myself tt e best solution is 4 me 2 dsp... n tt wou rilly help a whole lot... many ppl wou b happier tt way... maybe sum wun... but ey wun feel so 4 long... i wou soon b fgt anyway... life wou go on pfl w/out me ard... i noe i noe, i'm jus bein damn ngt nw... but i cant help it... tots like dese run thru my mind everytime anytin unhappy haps... n tts e way i m, i'm n ecp, cos i cant psv...

but maybe its jus a transition... once i get another job i like, n e currency flows back in our favor, n i'm finally bein accepted, den e heaviness wou all b lifted?? wou all dese unhappiness vanish in2 thin air?? ,_,

anyway, due 2 e constant grievin over my s.a.d life, instd of my hair turnin white, i've lost most of em...

at least i finally managed 2 fulfill 1 person's wishes... :x o! n 2 tt same person, dis is my 106th post btw... XP

stewpitt shooz

I swear shoes hate me for I dunno wat reason la. X( I've bn hurt by five diffe shoes since e start of dis yr lor. Ey literally cut n tear e skin off my toes la. Wat did I or my poor innocent feet ever do to u shoes to have to go thru such torture huh? T_T its unfair! Injustice I tel u!! Anyway, I'm giving my poor darlings some time off from dose tyrant shoes, n sticking to my old worn out slippers for e moment, though ey do leave ugly scars on my feet too. X( I'm n ill-shoe-fated person man. T_T

ok i'm back again usin my comp 2 blog instd of my iRiceball... so damn tedious 2 blog w/ him man... anyway, dose bitch shoes!! i rilly dun bloody understd hw ey can trick me 1 aft another, makin me fall deep into deir trap n den abusin my precious feet... X(

anyway, recappin on e past wk, it was pretty eventful la... celeb cammie's bday on mon, sabo-ed her w/ streamers tt were prev meant 4 me actually... haha... den tue was a v last min plan 2 go watch the L movie w/ e girls... den wed n thu was stay hme n look guai infrnt of my parents day... but on fri, i 1st went 2 attend a cocktail party 4 e launch of a chicago condo w/ my dad n sis... o e shishamos!! XD e other food served were so-so only la... in n hr's time, we were v full n ready 2 leave liao... haha... so i den went 2 meet jas, mich n juf... my feet were alrdy cryin 4 help n yet i can stil torture em summo by walkin 4m 4 seasons hotel 2 heeren lor.. haha... madness... den we hung out n played bridge all... n even doh i was feelin sicker n sicker, i stil absurdly decided 2 join jas n her cousins 4 clubbin!! rilly crazy liao lor... i even bought a new pair of shoes jus 2 go clubbin lor... but amazinly aft eatin panadol cold relief, i felt beta by e time i got 2 zouk... den we played 5 ten, wch i've only played a few times b4, n miraculously, i managed 2 make jas drink 7 times str lor... wahahha... XD danced e rest of e nite away, n den sat was here... IT FAIR!!! haha... went w/ mich, juf n gary... rilly damn alot of ppl la... its like s doh 1/2 of sg's population were squeezin deir ass at suntec lor... -_-" anyway, lucky gary was ere 2 advise or i'd rilly haf jus gotten e more ex white fujitsu laptop tt had lower specs dan e black 1 wch i got in e end la... heh... ~_~" i'm also a bimbo jus like mich who shops 4 electronics based on colors 2... XD whahaha... i totally 4got abt gettin a projector doh.... =( i hope e next IT fair comes soon... @_@ anyway, sun was fun, went 2 c wu zun at bugis... he's rilly cute in person man... more flawless in real life dan on tv sia... perfect sia he... haha... e whole experience of squeezin w/ dose fan girls is alot 2 tok abt, but i'm 2 tired 2 explain liao... haha... 4m 10 meters, we manage 2 close e gap up til only 3 meters away 4m him sia... n tts whn jas n sw started whippin out deir hps 2 take pics all... but i din feel like actin like a fan girl doh... haha... so i jus eyed him intently la... i mean such a flawless face!! prettier dan a girl even man... hw 2 nt ogle rite... besides its almost impossible 2 c cute guys in sg 1 lor... XP wahaha... den mich finally came dwn only whn wu zun n crew left lor... -_-"

ok, i gotta rilly cut short my post cos i needa slp man... so tts all la... but mon was bridge n 2dae was meet e spartans, rilly spastic man... haha... nitezzzZZZzzz u_u