tool march

ok, let me complain a lil bit abt e super sad n pathetic tin called my l.i.f.e... its so narrow... its so bloody squeezy here la... no room 4 much tins... only room 4 2 tins, 1 is self n e other is centered... n i hate dose 2!!! X( but sadly, i'm stuck w/ em 4 life... -_-*** haizzz...

its currently e dwns n dwner la... dunno y it feels so dps lately... feel like n emo wreck most of e time... i easily get dgt w/ myself nwadays... like nt understdin a norm person's pt of view... only seein tins thru my eyes... n nt filterin tins proply... so words escape w/out enuff consideration, n regret soon sets in... T_T i feel so freakin bad abt myself tt e best solution is 4 me 2 dsp... n tt wou rilly help a whole lot... many ppl wou b happier tt way... maybe sum wun... but ey wun feel so 4 long... i wou soon b fgt anyway... life wou go on pfl w/out me ard... i noe i noe, i'm jus bein damn ngt nw... but i cant help it... tots like dese run thru my mind everytime anytin unhappy haps... n tts e way i m, i'm n ecp, cos i cant psv...

but maybe its jus a transition... once i get another job i like, n e currency flows back in our favor, n i'm finally bein accepted, den e heaviness wou all b lifted?? wou all dese unhappiness vanish in2 thin air?? ,_,

anyway, due 2 e constant grievin over my s.a.d life, instd of my hair turnin white, i've lost most of em...

at least i finally managed 2 fulfill 1 person's wishes... :x o! n 2 tt same person, dis is my 106th post btw... XP