youtube discovery

ha... bit slow i noe... but i din haf time b4 til nw... aft i've clred up pract all my animes n even mangas(at work ~_~") i got nutin else 2 watch at hme liao... i even went 2 d/l e nana movie wch i've bn delayin cos i tot i'd never haf time 2 watch it n it'd jus take up space wch i was v v v v low on... heh... but nw, i haf 2 wait 4 it 2 d/l finis... -_- so anyway, aft tt day i finis readin e death note manga, i went 2 read up more abt it at e forums all... n tt led me 2 youtube!!! wahahaha... i started watchin any death note related videos, bearin in mind dis is all done at work, i'd b rilly busted if ey felt like bustin me... haha... anyway, watched pract all e death note videos liao... T_T but den i also found out got others la... parfait tic, hot gimmick, so many so many!! ^_^ i was targetin e manga titles more cos wanna c em move in action since ey're nt out on anime yet... haha... but ey're mostly nt done up s nice s e death note 1... more of jus showin diffe slides of e pics... but aft tt, guess wat i found?? BOKURA GA ITA epis!!! my god, tts whn i realised tt ey even put up anime epis!!! walau... its like u dun even haf 2 d/l em on bt n u can watch all of it liao... jus in poorer n smaller quality la... haha... so anyway, yes, i'm totally in love w/ bokura ga ita... its soooo shoujo, so fantasy like cos such a tin will never hap in real life... ere's nt such a guy like him alive... ahhhhhh!!! XD i sooooo in love w/ him!! wahahaha... he's soooooo perfectly imperfect, its jus so unbelieveable tt a guy like him will exist la... haha... anyway, stupid me went 2 del e 1st 4 epis, aft alot alot of contemplation, endin up cryin n screamin whn i realised wat i had done... haha... but luckily 4 me, youtube has it!!! i spent e whole of last nite watchin all 6 epis again... haha... crazy or wat sia... but i realised i rilly liked e insert song whr ere's dis lalalalala singin whn both of em r engaged in sum heart 2 heart tok or sumtin... so i recorded every part tt tt insert song played in all e epis... haha... plus i rilly like hearin em tok 2... i can jus pic deir whole scene whn i listen 2 it... makes me smile a v silly smile e whole time... heh... ^____^ i LOVE both of em... i LOVE deir world... i guess i love escapin alot... heh... ~_~

the finale

i jus finis readin e last chap of death note... i mus say, all i feel nw rilly is dis v pain n sad feelin... anyway, big spoiler ahead, so dun read... doh i noe u guys dun care abt spoilers... -_-" NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! i like raito!! even doh he's sorta e villian here... but i never ever wanted him 2 ever lose... i never wanted L 2 die in e 1st plc either... n i dun rilly like near at all, nor mello at all... i guess, i jus dun wan it 2 end at all... i jus wan 2 read n read more of hw raito n e others fight each other 2 kill 1st or catch 1st... e thrill of readin hw ey try 2 outsmart each other all... it was beyond words... but nw tt its finis... T_T w/ e endin part wch looks like misa leadin a troop of ppl who stil believes in kira revivin 1 day... makes me feel like cryin... cos i jus feel like ey're waitin 4 sum1 who isnt gonna come back anymore... T_T so sad...

but anyway, i rilly liked e concepts in death note's world... rmb 1 part whr ryuk told raito tt if he used e note bk, aft he dies, he wun go 2 heaven or hell?? guess wat raito said?? he said tt he new tt... he said bcos neither heaven nor hell exist... raito is sooooo smart!!! ^_^ n in e death note world, he is rite... ere's no such tins n aft u die, its rilly jus nutiness... heh... i like tt... nutiness... doh it seemed like a rilly horrid tin 2 raito... nt able 2 use his super magnificent brilliance 2 rule anytin... i guess he's pretty much a ctrl freak la... haha... so anyway, all e ppl tts left r ppl i dun like, so fine, go ahead... live on in tt horrible world of urs wch is jus gonna get more n more rotten w/out kira ard... its ur loss 4 continuin 2 live... XP o well, i hope aft i die, i can go join raito n L in e nutiness... ^_^

late asses

i slpt at 3am last nite... T_T so tired... T_T 1stly, ytd was thurs, my go hme n watch tv day... but!! cos ey wanted 2 get e ticks 4 genting, ey insisted tt i go 2... T_T ah well... its a freakin trip anyway, ere's no way i'll jus close my eyes n ask others 2 choose 4 me... haha... $92... bye bye $92... T_T but o well, hello theme park!! ^_^ n also dis will b my 1st trip w/ u guys!! ^_^ it'll b so much diffe 4m goin w/ my fam, more troublesome, less $$, but more bridge n FUN!! wahaahha... ok, so i went chinatown 2 wait 4 em, sw was a bit late, mich was BIG LATE s usual even doh i called her like every min 2 hrs b4 meetin time 2 call her 2 get ready n nt b late!! -_-" jas worked til quite late 2... haizzz... u guys wan me 2 go out but u're alwiz late!! X( ok, jas is norm late cos of work, n tt i noe she cant rilly help it, but mich!!! i swear u're shortenin my life by makin me soooooo aggravated all e time!! doh tts nt rilly a bad tin.. XP anyway, u're late 4 stupid reasons like cant choose wat 2 wear, stuck on ur comp, cant wake up, etc... even whn i keep remindin u every min 4 2 hrs nt 2 do stupid tins rite b4 u meet us, u'll say ya la ya la n go on ur comp e nxt SEC!!! ass...... -_-" ah ah... i'm actually rilly tired of naggin abt ur tardiness... 4 1 whole wk it has bn comin out of my mouth like vomit... i'm tired of vomittin man... pls learn ur own self discipline... ur teacher nids 2 go on sick leave... =_=

anyway, i went hme quite late ytd, missed 2/3s of e drew carey show... but def caught less dan perfect!! ^_^ so anyway, by e time i bathed n all, it was 12.. like wtf.... -_- but wasnt slpy at all, so had 2 watch sum animes 2 slp, ok, u guys can stop readin nw cos dis is of no concern 2 u at all... i watched bokura ga ita... so NICE!!! its such a typical shoujo story 4 typical girls, but ya, tts wat i m... haha... but yano's so.... wow... cute, gentlemenly, yet irresponsible, but get tins tt rilly nid 2 b done done, haf tt v strong presence... ah.... he so perfect in a way... heh... n even doh e girl's pathetic in her own way, even doh she noes tt she has so many flaws, but i love e way she toks back... its witty n all 4 such a soft spoken gentle voice... hmmm... i min u gotta rilly hear her voice la den u'll noe wat i min... its so fragile dose kind, but it mite jus b e fake 1 she puts up most of e time cos it does chnge whn she's flarin up la... heh... witty ppl... my office has alot of such ppl actually, but i cant say anytin back... i can only smile or luff... so pathetic i m... so anyway, i admire her la, even doh hw badly she tinks of herself... cos i alwiz liked dis kind of witty ppl but i'm jus afraid of tokin 2 em... afraid of em lookin at me waitin 4 my come back yet i can only stare at em, w/ nutin goin thru my mind at all... T_T i sux so bad man... haizzz... anyway, i'm depressed enuff la... tinkin of hw i'm such n empty vessel n tts y i can only act cute n b stupid... haizzz... hw i rilly wish i was livin in e death note world... den i wou b killed by kira 4 bein a slacker w/ no aim... heh... n so fun, havin so many ppl die everyday... n wats so bad abt a heart attack?? i tink tts a pretty gd way 2 die lor... XD

unfair treatment

nobody understds me... T_T i'm so sad... u guys dun understd y i love 2 stay hme... u guys wun understd... never will... fine... i get it... but its unfair!! X( other ppl haf bfs n its ok tt dey dun spend time w/ us cos dey wanna spend it w/ deir bfs, yet i cant spend time w/ my animes?? y isnt a date w/ my animes valid?? its unfair!!! do i no longer haf freedom 2 choose wat i wanna do anymore?? jus bcos u guys fil like goin out, den i haf 2 abandon my dream of stayin hme w/ my animes?? its unfair!!!! n i tink jas is 2 pampered by me liao... she tinks tt wateva free time i haf n whn she's bored 2, i'll go taggin along w/ her!! i also haf a mind n life of my own, i also wanna do other tins 2 wat... T_T its unfair!!!!! n u guys were jus jokin rite?? abt nt tokin 2 me anymore?? cos i took a v long n hard time psychoin myself 2 nt take it seriously... cos seriously, i cant diffe whn u guys r jokin or nt... n i jus take everytin s it comes, n fil like crap aft hangin up all... so y do dis 2 me!!! its so unfair!!!!!! X( u bullies!!! T_T

work is crap

i watched 70 over animes epis over e wkends, prob u guys dun wanna hear dis since its abt wat ur rival n i did aft stealin me away 4m u guys... wahahaha... i've clred so many animes i'm dwn 2 only abt 40 animes epis!! ^_^ once i clr everytin up, i wun ever haf 2 fil like doin everytin else is a waste of time liao... wahahah...

i'm screwed O_o

meaninless shit

national day is over, ere goes my 1 day of hols... T_T i wish it were longer... well, spent it of cos watchin anime... hohoho... no 1 2 disturb me cos dey all had plans or work... hohoho... but i din rilly watch animes, instd i watched e j dramas lyin stagnant on my 2 comps 4 a v long time nw... i finally watched tt last epi of hana yori dango... heh... wch is nt bad la... i rilly liked e 1st few epis beta... densha otoko also, wch made me stay up til 2am last nite... =_= i nid more slp!!!! densha was ok 2... alot of repetition cos it was alot of recap 4 e last 2 epis n e final story epi n e another story epi... -_-" haizzz... maybe its here again... e everytin seems meaninless kinda illness... its haps once in a whl, n tts whn i clr up alot of animes n mangas cos i jus lose e int 2 follow deir stories whn ey jus seem so meaninless... e tins tt ey do, e reasons tt dey do it 4... or maybe its jus 4 ese 2 j dramas la... nt enuff bishis maybe?? cos densha's a terribly geekish otaku n i dun rilly like e actor who plays doumyouji in hana yori dango... gokusen n nobuta wo produce shou b beta la... ^_^ s 4 animes, i caught suzumiya haruhi till e 2nd last epi... kyon's world jus never fails 2 get wackier n wackier... poor guy... all he wanted was a norm high sch life huh... haruhi's stil kept in e dark most of e time, abt e whole world revolvin ard her... she's lucky rilly... but ere was dis part whr she tells kyon hw she realised tt her life was insignificant... tt ere was nutin special abt her, or her family, or her classmates n stuff... at a v yg age of like 9 or 10, n she tot like tt... so impressed w/ her advanced maturity... wahahhaha... so anyway, she jus got sad til she realised tt she shouldnt sit ard n jus wait 4 sumtin special 2 hap... tt she shou go look 4 it instd... n so dis weird character of hers appeared, constantly lookin 4 n alien, time traveller, esper... dis uniqueness of hers jus baffles ppl... but her beauty also attracts em 2 her... i like her uniqueness... its so extreme...but den again, i'm nt s intelligent or athletic s her, n e world surely does nt revolve ard me... haizzzz... i'm jus walkin in circles here rnt i... wats sig 2 me is nt 2 others... so wats e pt of tokin abt it rilly?? u noe, i rilly feel like i cant blog anymore... cos it all jus seems so meaninless nt jus 2 me but 2 every1 2... n e only reason i'm still sittin here typin is cos i've got no other meaninless tins 2 do besides dis at dis bloody office, i rilly wish 2 gif dis blog a break but wat else will i do man... so god damn borin here... no work day aft day... n e paranoia tt ey're all bitchin abt me... -_- damn sianz lea... i haf a mth left 2 work here, i rilly hope ey dun cont 2 hire me sia... unless ey move me 2 e other dept tt actually has work 2 do la... n beta sittin position 2... ~_~ anyway, blah blah blah... meaninless meaninless meaninless...

irritated soul

1stly, happy bday justine... u're finally 17... nt tt u can do anytin yet... but congrats u're 1 step closer 2 growin old... wahaha... nt funny huh... -_- anyway, i've hit n irritated season... my irritation lvl cant get any higher dan dis, or at least it beta nt... i jus feel so irritated i feel like killin ppl most of e time... maybe i watched 2 much tokko... n anime whr massacres is n everyday tin n limbs n body parts r torn out or sliced off n blood splashes all over e plc... @_@ or maybe i'm jus irritable nwadays... i dunno y, but i wish e ppl ard me on e bus wou disappear, work wou disappear 2... jus wanna stay hme n watch anime... T_T over e wkend, i spent fri n sat out w/ u guys, so i din get 2 watch anime... but sun was blissful... i watched alot of animes... heh... i'm nw way ahead of my sis... but nite time came n guess wat?? she was leavin e hse 2 go 4 a 3 day golf trip!! O_O she told me she took leave 4m work... so lucky... at tt pt of time, i rilly wanted 2 nt go 2 work also liao... wish i coul stay hme n watch anime all day n nite long... w/ nutin 2 interrupt me... haizzz... but damn i'm stuck at work nw... whn i 1st started, it rilly din seem like a dreadful tin at all, maybe cos of e $$... but nw i rilly feel damn sianzzz... i used 2 b able 2 sit ard n do nutin bearin in mind i'm bein paid 2 do jus tt... but nw it jus bores n irritates e hell outta me... i feel like i can jus b hme slpin or watchin anime... X( *guzu guzu guzu*

anyway, watched 2 movies on sat... tokyo drift n click... both nice... ^_^ but i tink click is beta la... made me luff n rilly cry... i n jas rilly waterfall lor... lucky i brought tissues... haha... well, i dun rilly wanna say much except ey're nice n go catch em 2 find out la...

ok... tts all... i feel irritated enuff jus by bloggin... -_-

sianzz sianzzz

i tink my entries r borin... ere's nutin 2 blog abt at all... life has bn pretty dull... jus work n sick n go out n slp n watch sum animes... sianzzzz... -_-" n its rilly irritatin 2 b sick more dan 1/2 e time... my mouth rilly hurts... e ulcers r gone but nw e tongue's all swallon w/ heaty bubbles... X( in so much pain... n i haf low lvl of pain tolerance summo... cant eat all e great junk yet i'm still gettin fatter day by day... -_-" wats dis man... anyway, jas complains tt i shouldnt blog abt fat me cos she has 2 listen 2 it everytime we meet liao... ~_~"

anyway, ytd jas n i went 2 watch movie... e movie i've bn dyin 2 watch since i 1st saw e trailer... so happy... finally got 2 watch it... doh rite b4 e movie started jas was sayin most ppl told her it wasnt nice... -_-" but it was stil nice in e end anyway... jus got loop holes la.. but who cares... i love both of em... n i tink i enjoyed it even more cos i din noe wat e endin was b4hand... so gd trailer 4 nt givin away e endin n lucky no 1 told me 2... heh... anyway, tot it was rilly swt la... makes me wish such a tin cou hap 2 me 2... but who m i kiddin... haha...

mich u stil owe me 200 odd dollars!!

haha... n i nid more slp!!! T_T i fil so tired n all... n u noe wat?? i rilly got no mood 2 blog la...

e babies

at last... e bday mth is finally over... e last bday chalet was great btw... we ate, played mj, ey smoked, we played new card game, ey smoked summo, we ate again, played summo mj, we slpt, we ate, we took lotsa pics, we played mj, we break 2 eat, we cont playin mj, we break 2 cut cake n of cos eat cake 2 n had a photo takin session again, n back 2 our mj... n look at e time!!! i headed hme at last... so tt sums it all up... haha.. c a pattern?? eat, sumtin, eat, sumtin, eat!! i swear my stomach's a bttmless pit man... -_-" anyway, sw's bday party is e last food stuffin event 4 jul liao... nxt bday wou b mich but tts in sep anyway... but unfortunately, here comes aug babies!! 1/2 my fam is born in aug lor... T_T ere's no end 2 dis eatin fest man.... X( but happy advanced bday justine!!! since we wun b celebratin urs... wahahah... we celebratin mom's 1 2nite... eatin yet again at pizza hut!! tryin e new pizza out!! looks cheezy!! ^_^

ytd, i was typin n entry actually, but due 2 no time, had work 2 finis up, i din manage 2 publish it... it was nutin much... jus abt hw i wish i was 17 again... cos i was listenin 2 round table feat. nino... ey sang e op 4 chobits... n it reminded me of back den... whn i jus started 2 slide out of livin in plain misery n enjoyin e tins in life rilly... droppin out of poly, nt thinkin n carin so much abt e future, indulgin in animes 2 n extreme... basically, life rilly began 4 me at 17 ba... well, more like i closed 1 life n started a new 1... but i was happy... rilly happy... i never 4got e excited feelin in my tummy... knowin tt i din haf 2 go 2 sch anymore, dun haf 2 face ppl anymore, jus isolate myself in my rm w/ my life time companion(my comp)... but yet stil connected 2 e rest of e world whl online... i dunno... i jus felt like i coul do anytin 4m jus tt spot... jus lurkin ard in all tt many overseas n local anime channels, jus made me feel like everybody's ard me w/out me rilly facin anybody at all... heh... n rmb e riceball channel i opned n u guys visited me ere 4m time 2 time 2 chk if i was still alive?? wahaha... e late nite chats abt nutin but rubbish!! n weird visitors chkin wats w/ e crowded channel!! heh... tt was fun!! ^_^ nutin mattered den... nt e time nt e day, nutin!! i watch anime whnever i wanted, played online games whn i was tired of watchin, chat w/ ppl whn i was toked 2, eat whn i was hungry, slpt whn i was tired... day n nite meant nutin 2 me... i slpt at anytime of e day... infact i din even haf a reg slpin time den... i rmb ere was a period whr i jus slpt 4 2 hrs n woke up 4 another 2 hrs n slpt e nxt 2 hrs again contly... well, i guess u coul say i jus felt rilly safe kept up in tt hse w/ my baby s e link 2 e outside world... ahhh.... but guess u guys wun understd tt feelin cos u're nt isolated freaks like me... maybe justine can understd, but rmb dis kinda lifestyle cant last 4eva... unless u're a rich bastard who doesnt haf 2 work n stil haf lotsa $$ la... heh... ok, dis entry is so borin i prob put u guys in a coma alrdy... heh... o well, i jus had 2 do sum bloggin since i haf no work 4 2dae at all... sianzzzz... -_-