mall nink

mich, jus hilite e words on my blog den can read liao... XD ok, so i'm bored at work... i work 9-6pm btw... yeah!!!! finally... like reg office ppl!! n i haf more time 2 play aft work nw!!! ^_^ cons r, my drivin lessons is more ex nw, n i haf 2 wake up at 6am jus 2 bathe, apply whittenin lotion, put on green contacts n set my curly hair... doh i alwiz skip most of it n wake up at 7plus instd... XD den i haf 2 squeeze w/ e crazy office crowd whn i go 2 work n whn i finis work... lunch time is crazy 2 esp whn i eat w/ jas cos she can only eat btwn 12-2pm... but heck!! reg timin is stil way more advantageous dan anytin else man!! plus i get 2 c less of sum1... haha... i dun rilly wanna tok abt work actually, its bascially tirin... but nt physically... jus mentally n emotionally... anyway, bn killin myself w/ plans aft plans since mornin shift started 4 me... suddenly all e tins i was deprived of e past 3 mths, i'm jus crazily plannin tins every single day man... luckily i haven rilly fallen sick yet, close but nt yet... ^_^ borin... my post has no ril meanin 2 it man... so tts it 4 nw la...

earl lock

my god!!! my fuckin stomach hurts like fuck!! i dunno if its e stupid koi bubble tea i had jus nw or e lunch at dome w/ my mom or my lousy sittin position or cos i drank 2 much cold water all day or i'm 2 excited abt all e plannin i've bn doin all day 4 e nxt jb trip!! FUCK!! i wanna tear my guts out n leave it outside rite nw man!!! its defly nt shittin kinda stomach pain, more like e do 2 much sit ups kinda muscle cramps kind... but it seriously hurt a million times more dan tt i fil lor... T_T

anyway, besides my fuckin painful stomach, i've bn plannin my nxt jb trip w/ jas jus nw... doh she told me she mite nt go 4 e nxt jb trip doh... T_T i nid 2 go back n get colored contacts 4 justine, ey're like only S$17 a pair lor!! get my mom's medical stuff wch r sellin 4 almost 1/2 price ere... mostly tins 4 em la... since daily necessities rnt cheap ere, clothes n shoes r either above my budget or nt v nice all... so i guess i'm basically ere 4 e cheap fd, massage n movie...plus i get 2 slp w/ baby on a bed instd of my pathetic small mattress at hme... anyway, i was excitedly researchin abt it online since jas complained tt we shul add in seafd even doh she mite nt b goin e nxt trip btw... -_-" so s i was sayin, i searched e area ard e seafd plc on google map n found out tt holiday plaza, pelangi plaza, leisure mall n lien hoe complex r nearby... hwever, holiday plaza is 4 dvds games n stuff, pelangi is 4 higher mkt/branded stuff, leisure mall is jus a huge giant supermkt w/ mac n a cinema n lien hoe complex, i had difficulty researchin it... but whl researchin lien hoe complex, i came across dis blog of a sgian mother w/ 4 kids... she shul b abt 40yrs old since she's bn married 4 20 yrs alrdy... so wats so special abt dis mother?? i tink i'm gonna grow up 2 b like her!! but minus e 4 kids la... i'm v aunty whn it comes 2 comparin prices n all... n guess wat she does?? she basically blogs abt whr she went in jb, n states e price 4 every single tin she bought n ate all!! only prob is, she's alwiz tokin abt milk powder n kid's sch stuff like shoes n bags all... but nutin abt clothes n shoes n bags 4 herself all!! my god!! does all girls bcome selfless whn ey bcome a mother?? anyway, i was tellin jasmine tt if i ever had kids, ey're wrin rags!! XP kids treated like princesses n princes will turn out like me!! so no way in hell i'm lettin tt hap!! XD so anyway, curious abt dis mother of 4, i started 2 read more of her other posts bsides e jb 1s... surprisinly, her whole family watches animes 2!! doh her taste rnt rilly similar 2 mine... she liked stuff i tot was borin or so-so n disliked e stuff i tot was super nice!! anyway, i guess i'm jus impressed at her calculativeness la... she makes sure 2 go jb 4 times a yr jus 2 stock up on all e kids' stuff n medicine n all... plus e cheaper dental n petrol 2... alwiz goin in early n comin back by 4pm also... rilly purely a grocery shoppin trip rather dan a wkend shoppin trip like mine... n e best part is yet 2 come, she opned a malaysia bank acct ere!! n i was jus sayin last sat tt i shul go chk deir banks out n opn 1 ere so tt i cou rid goin 2 e chinatown money changer n lettin em earn 100-200 pips lor!! my plan is basically 2 use mh's ig mkts acct n convert e SGD 2 MYR at interbank rate wch is only a few pips diffe instd lor... den TT e money str 2 e malaysia bank acct b4 we go jb... cos ig mkts has no deposit or w/drawal charges wat!!! so u save on e currency exchange rates!! ^_^ i noe u guys tink i'm crazy cos it'll at most only save us a couple of dollars each trip... but hey, in e long run, i save EARL LOCK!!! haha... XD anyway, here's a story 4m her blog wch i liked... enjoy!!

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day,

drinking iced tea and visiting with her mother.

As they talked about life, about marriage, about the
responsibilities of life and the obligations of
adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her
glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance
upon her daughter..

'Don't forget your sisters,' she advised, swirling
the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. 'They'll
be more important as you get older. No matter how
much you love your husband, no matter how much you
love the children you may have, you are still going
to need sisters. Remember to go places with them now
and then; do things with them..'


'Remember that 'sisters' means ALL the women...
your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other
women relatives too. 'You'll need other women.
Women always do.'


What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman
thought. Haven't I just gotten married?
Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a
married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely
my husband and the family we may start will be all I
need to make my life worthwhile!'


But she listened to her mother. She kept contact
with her sisters and made more women friends each
year. As the years tumbled by, one after another,
she gradually came to understand that her mother really
knew what she was talking about. As time and nature
work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman,
sisters are the mainstays of her life...


After more than 50 years of living in this world,
here is what I've learned:

THIS SAYS IT ALL:


Time passes.


Life happens.


Distance separates.

Children grow up.

Jobs come and go.

Love waxes and wanes.


Men don't do what they're supposed to do.


Hearts break.

Parents die.


Colleagues forget favors.


Careers end.

BUT.........

Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how
many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away
than needing her can reach.


When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you
have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life
will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on
your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the
valley's end..


Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk
beside you...Or come in and carry you out.


Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters,
daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers,
Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended
family: all bless our life!

The world wouldn't be the same without women, and
neither would I. When we began this adventure called
womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or
sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we
would need each other..


Every day, we need each other still.

skin knee

i miss bein skinny... or at least skinnier dan nw... like 5 kgs less... 45kg... haizzz... i cant belif i wanna b 45kg whn i used 2 tink tt 42kg is ideal but 39kg wou b best... XD nw tt i tink abt it, i prob haf 2 eat nutin 2 b tt skinny liao lor... anyway, every1's bn tellin me i'm fat, even my own mom wanna send me 4 slimmin treatment la... T_T i've bn lookin at my old photos esp e ones b4 baby n i were 2gether... T_T i wan my old body back!!!!! X( i wasnt like super skinny, but i din haf giant tighs n arms or a huge belly lor... n my face wasnt e chubbiest tin u saw either... T_T so anyway, i noe its e xxx makin me fat, or is it?? maybe its e increased amts of fd i eat nw or e lack of exercise or sumtin else... but anyway, i tink i'll start w/ e sauce diet... s all of u noe, i eat sauces like ey were e main course... XD plus cheese 2... omg!!! does dis mean i cant eat so much cheese 2!??! but cheese is nt under sauces ba... XD hmmm... if i stay away 4m cafe cartel, pizza hut n all other pizza plcs, i shul b able 2 go cheese free ba... ok, 4 e sake of my old 45kg body, i shul stop w/ e extreme cheese eatin habit la... haizzzz... T_T sugar is still sumtin i cant cut dwn doh... i mite s well only drink plain water 4m nw on lor... its ptless 2 drink tasteless swt drinks anyway... so i'll stil tink abt it... s 4 exercisin, hmmmmmmmm... 2 lazy 2 wake up early 2 go joggin... plus i dun like joggin... rather blade, but cant get fried by e sun, n baby doesnt like exercisin at nite... T_T my frens r actually goin 2 swim on wkdays evenins whl i'm stuck at work lor!! X( i'm stil workin on e exercisin part, but doubt i'll do much exercisin doh... since it doesnt seem 2 work on me also anyway... XD n lastly, xxx... gif it up?? haizzz... i'll cont tinkin abt it la...

regret la

yes, i'm damn bored... I actually fell asleep on my desk jus now... I think i snored too... X( shit man... I slept at almost 5am yesterday nigh an wake upp at 8plus am this mornin la... Tats why so tire... Went to watch kick ass wit justine inn e mornin, rushed back to work at one, den afte turnin on my office comp, went off wit justine to eat lunch for an hour... Den she went home an i'm stuck here at work wit nothin to do again... So bored tat i fell asleep an snored! T.T mich iz now waitin for mi to finis work an iz going home to change an rest all... Once i finis work den wi'll meet upp awhile for a chat an stuff... My dad jus called mi an ask mi if i can take e rest of e nigh off so tat can go eat temple dinner wit him... It was so temptin... But i'm stil full from lunch... Plus its already 6plus, so its not worth it to take half day off liao... An also i might s well go meet mich like tat right... An den i realised somethin... Regret la! I shul have jus taken e whole day off today! Den i dint have to rush here an ere wit justine inn e mornin, an wi coul have gone shoppin afte tat also... Den when she goes for temple dinner wit my dad, i'll jus meet mich an hang all... Afte tat, wi might even have time to play L4D wit gary if hee finis work late... Haizzz... So pek chek ... Now i stil have 3hrs more to go... I doubt i can jus keep bloggin for 3hrs strait though... Sianz...

job change

damn it... Cant sleep... Seldom happens since i changed job actually... I wake upp pretty late an yet i stil norm feel tire by midnigh... Yeah... New job... :) s a director summo... XD But no power wat so ever... So sad... Stil like a worker ere... Jus director inn name only... E workin hrs of one to ten iz half goood an bad... But more bad i think... I miss out on all e fun others have afte ey knock off at 6pm... By e time i'm done, everyone's going home liao... T.T an i have so little time left wit my baby liao... :( hee stil tries to come down an eat dinner wit mi all... But i guess its very tiring for him... Beca my work's at an expensive place... Hee alwiz grumbles bout e parkin an erp here... Wi had wendy's jus now... Was really nice! An not tat ex too! I wanna go try their cheap 4 bucks meal promos next time! An their frosty ice-cream stuff! Though wi also bought back ben an jerry's ice-cream jus now... Tried e new cookie affair flavor, so so only... Bit too sweet an i guess i'm jus not a fan of cookies an cream... Anyway, enough bout ice-cream, work's been really really borin! I seriously go ere an do NUTIN all day... An its already been 3 months over liao... I cant believe i actually wanna work so badly... Since i'm alwiz e kind tat loves to eat s much snake s i can... Though its nice to finally earn so much for a change... Heh... If business really kicks off an stabilises... My dad will also earn alot from it since hee's e shareholder... Haha... Yes, i'm stil relyin on my dad... Wit no qualifications, i'm really lucky to get this job man... I hope it really goes well so tat baby an i can lead a comfortable life together... An agent actually informed us tat ere was a flat going for 300k at dakota! An e location was damn goood! I was so excited, but when wi drove pass e place, baby said it was a really old flat... :( i hope its still nice inside though... Or hopefully e agent stil got other goood available flats for us... Dint expect her to reply us afte wi told her our 300k budget actually... XD But on one hand i'm worried its too soon for us to get our own place wit not much money all, on e other hand i scare e flat prices will cont to rise plus i really like this area too... Its like such a waste to miss this opportunity like tat... Really hope wi can make e right decision all ba... O ya... Dint mention tat i've been going to church right? Well, stil tryin to feel somethin from it, but nothin... Every wk i go ere an try my best not to fall asleep... Haizzz... I really think ere's no hope for mi man... I'm meant to die a non believer... Though, i do feel its actually beta to think tat wi die an ere's nothin afte tat... Its less tiring tat way... Den to go on to heaven or hell... Anyway, i guess e road's stil long for mi, tins i used to say i'd never do are somehow changin for mi now... Its scary how much i can change inn 7, 8 years man... But hopefully i can one day become a person tat my baby wont wanna leave... ~.~

richin hymn

i give upp! Stupid rules like not allowin my baby to stay over an shit! Such an o fashion family i have here! An its unfair! Everybody else gets to do it too! Plus my stupid sister used to have her bf stayin over all e time my parents were overseas! Fuck ! Life jus doesn't seem to work out well if hee cant stay over la... All e late nights an him havin to drive home late iz all yr fault! If somethin bad happens to him its all yr fault! Shit! I'm pissed off tat i cant do shit! An i don wanna rush into marriage either... I wish i had more money... Buy a stupid condo instead an live ere wit my baby! But tat doesn't work either, it'll be either inn a bad location or wont be built finis til dunno when... Damn it! Nothin works! I cant jus live wit him anytime soon... But i also don understand why its so unbearable to not be wit him for even a day... An why e hell woul i one us to live together an see each other when wi wake an all like how families do... Wat if wi get sick of each other this way? But somehow i don care, i stil one it anyway... I feel like i need e security tat hee's ere right beside mi breathin e same air s mi... Tat i can rich him easily...

er loan

hmmm... its back again... e depressed mood n feel n tots... everytins jus ptin 2 i'll eventually b all alone... ere's jus a huge wrong abt me tt makes ppl leave me... i'm borin, naggy, cheapo, negative n a huge blob of depressiveness... n i m blind... blind 2 e line tt anybody w/ common sense wou noe nt 2 cross... i do tins in extreme... no 1 will tolerate dis flaw of mine 4eva... i say tins tt hurt ppl w/out feelin shit... n only feel bad whn ey tell me so... n all i wun b able 2 say sorry or anytin tt wou make it beta so i'll jus tink hw terrible a person i m, so y r u stil botherin 2 stay w/ me?? leave, u'll all b happier bein NT ard me... i only say tins tts unpleasant anyway... no 1 will understd my world... correction, its nobody in deir rite mind wou eva wanna noe anytin abt my world... ey jus wan me 2 get out of my own world n join em in deirs...

fei ache

1stly, i was despressed in e mornin n wanted 2 blog abt dis actually... but i'm no longer in tt depressed mood nw actually... so anyway, ere's alwiz bn dis fear inside me... tt ppl will find out i've got no heart... i calc alot... n its 2 e pt whr i dun tink i've got any ril filins left actually... i've mentioned on my blog quite a few times... wats ril n wats nt?? y do i fil tt e care n love i gif ppl r jus calc decisions... none of em r genuine anymore... its more like sensible logic 2 me... nt love... nt ril filins at all... n i've alwiz wondered if, i'm nt wrong... maybe i'm nt e only 1 born w/out filins, so r e others... but s we grow up, we learn 2 care 4 ppl, n sumhw, it bcomes common sense 2 em... so ey dun qn or reject it... whl i unfortunately, cldnt make myself succumb 2 dis make blif n blif tt i care 4 ppl naturally... but it cou also b tt we r born w/ filins... ey r genuine, but i'm jus in denial n i cant seem 2 trust my heart... so e care n love i shower ppl w/ jus doesnt feel ril, its all jus effort, nt 4m e heart but 4m e brain... or maybe i'm jus born wrong... i'm e only 1 w/ no heart... god or wateva overlooked n created every other parts of my body includin a physical heart, but 4got 2 add e magical touch of ril genuine filins... so i'm incomplete... haf alwiz known tt i'm incomplete... i try 2 get sum1 2 fill up e hole, but along e r/s, i jus realise hw big e hole rilly is n tt no one's big enuff 2 ever fill it up... doom... i'm jus destined 2 b resigned 2 doom... resigned 2 a life of nvr seein any meanin in it... dyin w/out anytin aft tt... pure emptiness... wch i m nt unhappy abt actually... aft death shul b like tt aftall... but ppl will nvr accept or understd me nw whn i'm livin... n i'll grow old alone?? whn will my baby gif me up?? whn will i die n acceptance will den nt b nided anymore??