bad dream
i jus woke up 4m a bad dream wch makes me unable 2 cont slpin... on fri nite, i missed my chance 2 slp... n on sat mornin, i immediately went out w/ my family 2 billy bombers 2 celcebrate n early mom's day... sadly, e burger we ordered wasnt tt gd... 2 dry n all... anyway, went hme ard 1pm n finally kong 2 slp on a v full stomach mind u... T_T
so tts whn my v long dream started... i dun rmb wat hap in e frnt part cos so many tins hap n it was 2 long ago... but 2wrds e last part, i was a student... sch jus finis... had 2 go hme... walk 2 e bus stop outside, wch miraculously turned in2 my nearby hse bus stop.. n i waited 4 a bus 4 n hr over... but only weird no. buses like 630, 996 or sumtin came n went... nxt tin i noe, ishida(4m bleach) invited me 2 go visit him... n i was so frustrated tt e bus wasnt comin... n e nxt bus wch came was 64 or 65 i tink... n i jus got on it... asked e bus driver if it was goin 2 mountbatten rd or sumtin wch i wanted 2 go 2... n he said ya... actually i wasnt sure whr ishida stayed at.. jus new it was smwhr ere...
e bus was rilly crowded so i was stdin n dis girl seated infrnt of me asked if i was visitin ishida... den i was like ya... den she said she was 2, n tt she was his classmate, wch is pretty weird cos i tink earlier on i was invited 2 his hse cos i'm his classmate also or sumtin... so anyway we sat 2gether... asked her if she new wats his add... n she went no she din either... -_-" but we were along mtbatten rd n e hses looked like ishida's kinda hses, all big n landed n rich n all... so we got dwn... den she msged him tt we shou b ard his hse n ask whr is it so tt we cou go over...
e neighborhood suddenly warped in2 1 w/ n arcade, supermkt, cinema, shoppin centre all... like a small town in america or sumtin... anyway, ishida told us 2 meet him at "then", a closed shop up frnt... so we headed tt direction... n at e entrance, ere were a flight of stairs, e whole backgrd n stairs were all black... e stairs were pretty hi like dose 2 ps gv cinema entrance like tt... n s i was climbin it, e girl riched e top already n was tokin 2 him already... he was standin at e left side, hidden bhind a pillar... n s i started 2 emerge 2 e top, i slowly started 2 c his shoes, crossed 1 aft another infrnt of him... den more n more uncovered til e top of his head... it wasnt ishida at all... but in my dream, tt was fine... i stood leanin against e railin tt was situated at e center of e stairs, exactly like e ps gv stairs la... we all tok n he started tokin abt receivin sum solar powered rewards 4m i dunno wat comp or camp he joined... basically, nutin was makin any sense 2 me... n e girl was noddin her head n all, like she understood everytin... n i was sayin i was rilly lost n confused... n she actually tried explainin 2 me 2... den he rich over 2 i dunno pat me or sumtin, n i jus smacked his hand away ril hard b4 he cou touch me... e sound jus echoed thru e plc... n both of em were pretty shocked at my actions...
den e plc suddenly changed in2 a shoppin centre w/ a table n seats beside me.. i was leanin on a railin again... e ppl seated n standin ard e table whr classmates or sumtin... we were all handin up projs 2 dis big boss girl ere or sumtin... n he n e other girl b4 handed in deir gp's proj 2 e boss girl... n e boss girl was v impressed n sayin tt it was so welly done tt no 1 in class cou beat deir proj all... den i was tinkin of my gp's proj, n i realised tt i never helped chip in at all 4 e proj, cos i cant even rmb hw our proj looked like at all...i was jus devastated n depressed n all whl tt boss girl was still goin on abt hw gd deir proj was... i started walkin away, n e plc became a giant supermkt nw... n i was searchin 4 my mom n sis dis time... whn i finally found em in e huge ass supermkt, i woke up...
n so here i m typin dis entry... i jus feel v disturbed by it stil... well, anyway, i tink it was my fault in e 1st plc... i shou never go 2 slp on a full stomach again... i alwiz get bad dreams aft tt... but slpin 4 15 hrs like tt was gd la... catch back all e slp i've bn missin...
anyway, tink i go catch sum animes la... finally gonna watch nana nw actually... ~_~"
so tts whn my v long dream started... i dun rmb wat hap in e frnt part cos so many tins hap n it was 2 long ago... but 2wrds e last part, i was a student... sch jus finis... had 2 go hme... walk 2 e bus stop outside, wch miraculously turned in2 my nearby hse bus stop.. n i waited 4 a bus 4 n hr over... but only weird no. buses like 630, 996 or sumtin came n went... nxt tin i noe, ishida(4m bleach) invited me 2 go visit him... n i was so frustrated tt e bus wasnt comin... n e nxt bus wch came was 64 or 65 i tink... n i jus got on it... asked e bus driver if it was goin 2 mountbatten rd or sumtin wch i wanted 2 go 2... n he said ya... actually i wasnt sure whr ishida stayed at.. jus new it was smwhr ere...
e bus was rilly crowded so i was stdin n dis girl seated infrnt of me asked if i was visitin ishida... den i was like ya... den she said she was 2, n tt she was his classmate, wch is pretty weird cos i tink earlier on i was invited 2 his hse cos i'm his classmate also or sumtin... so anyway we sat 2gether... asked her if she new wats his add... n she went no she din either... -_-" but we were along mtbatten rd n e hses looked like ishida's kinda hses, all big n landed n rich n all... so we got dwn... den she msged him tt we shou b ard his hse n ask whr is it so tt we cou go over...
e neighborhood suddenly warped in2 1 w/ n arcade, supermkt, cinema, shoppin centre all... like a small town in america or sumtin... anyway, ishida told us 2 meet him at "then", a closed shop up frnt... so we headed tt direction... n at e entrance, ere were a flight of stairs, e whole backgrd n stairs were all black... e stairs were pretty hi like dose 2 ps gv cinema entrance like tt... n s i was climbin it, e girl riched e top already n was tokin 2 him already... he was standin at e left side, hidden bhind a pillar... n s i started 2 emerge 2 e top, i slowly started 2 c his shoes, crossed 1 aft another infrnt of him... den more n more uncovered til e top of his head... it wasnt ishida at all... but in my dream, tt was fine... i stood leanin against e railin tt was situated at e center of e stairs, exactly like e ps gv stairs la... we all tok n he started tokin abt receivin sum solar powered rewards 4m i dunno wat comp or camp he joined... basically, nutin was makin any sense 2 me... n e girl was noddin her head n all, like she understood everytin... n i was sayin i was rilly lost n confused... n she actually tried explainin 2 me 2... den he rich over 2 i dunno pat me or sumtin, n i jus smacked his hand away ril hard b4 he cou touch me... e sound jus echoed thru e plc... n both of em were pretty shocked at my actions...
den e plc suddenly changed in2 a shoppin centre w/ a table n seats beside me.. i was leanin on a railin again... e ppl seated n standin ard e table whr classmates or sumtin... we were all handin up projs 2 dis big boss girl ere or sumtin... n he n e other girl b4 handed in deir gp's proj 2 e boss girl... n e boss girl was v impressed n sayin tt it was so welly done tt no 1 in class cou beat deir proj all... den i was tinkin of my gp's proj, n i realised tt i never helped chip in at all 4 e proj, cos i cant even rmb hw our proj looked like at all...i was jus devastated n depressed n all whl tt boss girl was still goin on abt hw gd deir proj was... i started walkin away, n e plc became a giant supermkt nw... n i was searchin 4 my mom n sis dis time... whn i finally found em in e huge ass supermkt, i woke up...
n so here i m typin dis entry... i jus feel v disturbed by it stil... well, anyway, i tink it was my fault in e 1st plc... i shou never go 2 slp on a full stomach again... i alwiz get bad dreams aft tt... but slpin 4 15 hrs like tt was gd la... catch back all e slp i've bn missin...
anyway, tink i go catch sum animes la... finally gonna watch nana nw actually... ~_~"
posted by reiyang at 5:11 AM
7 Comments:
hey its unfair
our parents hate us but u two are establishing a good bonding with them.
i suggest mum/dad DO NOT PRESSURE er jie anymore. its no use. NO USE. er jie is not to blame for everything.
call mum to talk to me instead.
is that dream so bad? or u woke up feeling bad? i get that sometimes too.
i came online just to see if u sent back an email leh!! -.-"
so u din slp on fri, din meet jas again on sat and screwed up ur timing again??tell me y we din go out on fri?-_-
mom stil callin jess 2 scold her ma?? i dun rilly noe wats goin on liao... cos i'm livin in dreamland more dan livin my wakin life... -_-
n its nt all gd here la... ey're also angry/disappointed at me 4 quittin sch again n bein a bummer la basically... haizzz... maybe tts y i'm slpin more... 2 run away 4m facin em everyday... cos ey'll alwiz b tokin 2 me whn i'm awake... T_T
n if u wanna tok 2 mom jus pick up e phone n call her lor...
i guess i jus woke up feelin like crap n shaken la... i stil do nw... but tts cos i jus woke up again... haizzz...
s long s u noe wats e rite tin 2 do, i'll leave it in ur hands lor... dun wanna go meddlin again ma... got myself in hot soup also... mom n dad toks 2 me abt u guys all e time 2... damn pek chek lea... so make tins rite... if jess cant, gif her more time... but s long s u get urself out of dis mess asap, tt will make tins more dan 1/2 beta...
mich, so tt i haf 1 less tin 2 screw w/ me... n tts my dad scoldin me 4 goin out at nite... in fact, jus stayin hme n slpin has def made life much easier 4 me... i dun rilly c my parents so dey cant "tok" 2 me... n whn i do wake up, ere's less tins 4 em 2 "tok" 2 me abt... haizzz... wateva it is,its jus crappy season la... crappy may... horrible apr... dun noe whn life will ever get beta...
er jie is just focusing on the wrong things lah. things can actually be so simple. but she is influenced by blabla. me and yen forever discussing about this hot topic. haha. er jie, she doesnt want to get out of her comfort zone- him. i only removed myself from this mess becuz i cannot go on this expected reaction to him. (and its gotten to the worse extent) like every single time, i know what to expect to happen. and since i done it before, i can keep doing it. which is ya... talk to ya some other time.
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